Wednesday, April 21, 2010

=DD DD=

HEYO!!

I'm working.

Random, I know. But I just felt like blurting it out. So far only 7 (plus 5) humans know I'm currently working; Myra, Syima, Shila, Najian, Evia, Yani, Mama, Baba, Nana, Abang, Jij, and of course.. Me! Oh yeah. I forgot 3 (plus 6) other humans. Nadia, Jiaxuan, Atikah, Mas, Randy, Christine, Ira, Wan Yue, and that boy with the 'forgettable name(quoted from Nadia)', Zai. Hahahaha. OK whatever.


Lots of stories to share, but I'd rather not ;) shan't bore you with mundane information yeah :D

Just.. Why do people like to pair me up with guys I talk to? -.-'

Anyway, back to topic. I'm working. Yes. $4/hr. CHEAP right?! I know.. Gosh.. *sighs*

But. I'm working near British Take Away, which sells.................. YES!!! Fried Mars Bars!!! Whee~ Been such a long time since I have consumed the evil delicacy.

One week already I have worked there, and I have yet to taste it. Gyeargh. One of those times I really wish it would rain cash.




OK. Sorry to dampen your mood, but I need to get something off my chest. Rashilah's been getting the same rant over and over from me, and I shouldn't torture her more.

MY HARDDRIVE CRASHED!!!

MY BLOODY HARDRIVE CRASHED!!!

oh bloody fuck.

I feel so lost without my laptop. T.T now I'm using my dad/home's laptop. *sighs* bloody hell.

My songs T.T
My pictures T.T
My story T.T
My fanfic T.T
My saved webpages T.T
My poems T.T
MY ASSIGNMENTS AND NOTES!! *sighs*

Recovery = $200 - $300

Grawr. I need to slot in more hours.. A cheap $4/hr. Why the hell did I agree to it? Oh yeah. It's still money.. Urgh. I'm THAT desperate.

The fanfic I'm currently reading is so super nice. I sound bimbotic TA~ xDD


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
2:48 am



Saturday, April 10, 2010

trial

I watched her fair slim body sway as she walked almost reluctantly to the seat
beside me. Her long smooth legs looked almost dragged, and I had to resist the
temptation to hug her slim waist, to comfort her. As she walked, her luscious
long dark wavy hair tied in a ponytail high on her head swayed, making her look
like she’s doing a catwalk. Her face looked Asian-American. My best guess?
Japanese-American. Her sharp nose complimented her small but lush lips, making
me wonder how it would feel kissing them. Her big hazel eyes made her look
vulnerable yet independent for a woman. Her skin was clear and the sunlight on
her made her glow. She intrigued me in ways no other girls did, and it
frustrated me the way I felt about this girl I barely knew.

xDD

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
4:35 am



Tuesday, April 06, 2010

=D

Aim for the week:
  1. Fnish chapter 1 - I'M DONE WITH PROLOGUE!! YATTA~ xD Now if I just have the motivation to finish my first chapter. >=P
  2. Start on fanfic before idea slips away
  3. Attempt to write LOVE songs *sighs*
  4. Finish reading AT LEAST 2 more fanfics xD

It's ending next Wednesday. Gawd can't wait for it to end. And then probably the most miserable time of my life starts - PITA without pay. *sighs*

Had another HTHT session with the Sayang. Yes, I cried. I should stop being a crybaby. I CRIED WHILE READING A FANFIC IN WHICH CHANGMIN DIED!!! No, I didn't cry because he died, I cried because it was so touching. He knew his girlfriend didn't love him as he did her, and he knew she just sees him as a good friend, a brother at most. And whenever she was down and felt like giving up, he would appear, giving her encouragement and strength. Sweeeeeettt or whaatt?? Ahha.

One think I realise about fanfics, though, they are only descriptive when it comes to the R Scenes; or rather the Sex Scenes. I mean seriously. They would talk about the nipples getting hard, the moans, and it is beh-luh-dy descriptive. Some of the storylines are awesome, though. The twists were really unexpected. Hahh. And when it comes to Sex Scenes, so far only Jaejoong has had the most. Yoochun's had 1. And Jaejoong would rape the girl. Usually in the first three chapters. And then the girl fell for him.. The latest R fic that I read, Jae apparently does it almost every night(and even day), and yes, the writer pretty much wrote what happened everytime; how he gets hard when he hears the moans, and how his touches and kisses weaken the girl... there were about 30+ chapters, and almost every chapter has an (R) beside it -.-' *sighs* Why does Jae have to be the expert in sex? I want to see him as the adorable weirdo can? =/ And when there's a love triangle, if it's between Yunho and Jaejoong (plus a girl - I don't read Yaoi fics. They're just too weird), Jaejoong would be at least a rank higher than Yunho, and somehow, it makes Yunho seem dumb. Like he's all brawns and no brains =/ If it is between Jaejoong and Changmin (YES! There's always a Jaejoong involved -.-'), Changmin would get the girl first, and realise she doesn't love him like a lover, get his heart broken, and encourage her to go for the one she loves. *sighs* Junsu.. Well.. I read one where he was a couple with Yoochun, but that's not so major, and I guess it's OK, since the story didn't revolve around them. Another..... In short, I have yet to come across a fanfic revolving around Junsu's love life............ WITH A GIRL. xD
[I think I just read too much porn xD *sighs* Changmin's entering my head xDDDD]

love,

EFJ


♥;*~♪~*;♥
2:57 am



Monday, April 05, 2010

why?


*sighs* Why is fate so cruel?
"That's life. It's never fair"

Life IS fair. It is them(us) human beings that made them unfair. Just got the heartbreaking news. And I wasn't even expecting any news. I was so hoping for things to go uphill right now.

I just sighed again. Hahh. Pathetic, I know. I have never been so affected by any artistes. I can't imagine what Shila's going through. And it was them that had kept her so alive during the tough times. *sighs*

Big hugs from me, girl. Loves.

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
12:56 am



Saturday, April 03, 2010

boo!

BACK!! OK so after finishing my whole camp-bottle of shampoo and alot alot of hair oil, my hair isn't that bad.. But it's so OILYY!!! And it doesn't smell of shampoo =(((( *sighs* Better than lion hair, I guess (Sorry lion-lovers)

Abang was fishing the whole night with Jiji accompanying him (they caught 4 catfish and 1 other fish) while Nana and I played 'Achi Muite Hoi'[Japanese] or 'Cham Cham Cham'[Korean]. There's a Chinese name for it, but I forgot. Hehh. Anyway, it's a game where you rock-paper-scissors, and the winner moves his/her fingers to the left, right, up or down. The loser has to move his head either left, right, up or down. If the loser moves his head in the same direction as the winner's fingers, he/she[the loser] loses the round, and has to do a forfeit. Nana and I used Truth or Dare as a forfeit, which is kinda boring. I'd rather do an all-dare forfeit.. *sighs* The dares I came up with were rather ridiculous; I asked Nana to dance the chorus for Mirotic, imitate Junsu's pelvic thrusts, etc, all in public. Well, it was ridiculous because she didn't want to do it. Nana asked me to do pelvic thrusts too, and I did it without hesitation, and I think she got fed-up 'coz I wasn't so easy to embarrass xD
We listened to ghost stories on a Malay Radio Show as well; Ria 98.7FM. The first story we heard happened somewhere near where we were =.=* Ahh well. While listening, we wrote on each other's hands. Nana wrote
'DBSK ♥ Faiezah'
Of course, I wrote a very subtle
'Massu ♥ Nana'
xDD
Nana continued with her story [which is based on me xD] and I ATTEMPTED to continue mine. *sighs* No motivation at all.. =/ First chapter............ T.T Finally, I asked Nana if she would like me to do a song for her book - One of the characters in her story is a singer. Since she agreed, I tried. I ended up with two songs. They were supposed to be based on the theme, 'LOVE', but somehow they remind me of............. *sighs* And neither of them I really take a fancy to. Since I've already written it, however, I shall just post it up. In my poem blog. ;)

Ehh. I guess that's all.

Is this the season for moving? A lot of people I know are moving houses.. *sighs* Moving around August. Around.. Exam period? I wonder if we have exams.. But I know Nana'll be super stressed.. Fuck I seriously hate this.

I think all DBSK fanfic writers are YooSu fans hahh (Y)

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
10:47 pm



Friday, April 02, 2010

new beginnings

Hey hey sayangs!!

http://perfectlyunderstandable.blogspot.com/

Give me your opinions yeh =D

By the way. This is what has been stalling my first chapter. Promised myself I would end it by last week. Had the sort-of perfect ending, even. And then off to Shila and Ben Toh and Hid! =/ But yeah. Been writing poems sort of.. And... Well.. Let's leave the rest in the closet =D

I'm going to the beach. What I hate about it? The seawater. Ironic, I know. Hahh. But seriously. I hate swimming in there. It makes my hair funnier than it already is.. T.T But hopefully I will get inspiration xD

Been reading fanfics. And I suddenly thought of a nice fanfic which doesn't involve anyone being gay. Hahahaha.. Yes, that means Shila might just kill me xDD Both DBSK fanfics I read had alot of YooSu moments and hardly any YunJae moments, which is good, I guess.. Been getting too much YunJae moments. Hahh. and YooSu moments are absolutely adorable, even if just in fanfics =DD Oh I love fanfics although the language has much to improve on. xD YAYY! =D

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
8:09 pm