it amuses me, really.. how you ignore me and then wonder if i'm ignoring you..


i'm disappointed. i'm heartbroken.. i want to talk to you.. but i don't want to talk to you..

i've probably never been this angry at anyone before, except maybe him.. i've probably never been this heartbroken or disappointed at anyone before, not even him..

you ignore me when i start the talk.. and now when i've stopped, you wonder why..

it amazes me how someone like you can make me fall in and out..

funny thing, this life..


you want to talk to me, you take the initiative.. don't ask me why, though and don't be surprised if you find me ignoring you.. like i said, i couldn't be bothered..


if you think it's you, then i guess it is you.. but then again, you probably don't care.. argh! why should i even bother..


p.s. it is true, whether you believe it or not..


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
11:17 am

after watching that drama, i wonder..


what would you do/say/how would you react if i told you i were pregnant?

haha.. and again, forgive my outwardness.. haha


as you have or have not probably known, i am very random..


anyways, Diaz said, as long as it's not his, he'll first ask me how many months.. hahak.. ermm.. then, he'll be surprised but happy because i'll be a mother -.-; haha

and if he were the father(which is 164189541% impossible), he would search the newspapers for suitable jobs and houses.. hahakx.. he's so cute.. :P


ermm.. hahax.. that's all.. wahh.. boring sehh, haha.. it's times like these that i wish i were schooling/working.. haha..


and.. can someone do the MI dance with me? haha.. i really miss it larhh.. haha :P


love,
EFJ

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2:26 pm

well, first things first:




HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY, SYAFIQAH!!


may your future be bright.. :D

and ermm..

i'm seriously in need of bras.. hahax.. sorry for my insensitivity and ermm.. outwardness.. and ermm.. straight-forwardness.. and any other words from that family.. hahax =D


but seriously.. :P

haha.. that's all, i guess..


love,
EFJ

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4:46 am

14 Sai no Haha aka 14-year-old mother

all about the life and difficulties of a pregnant minor..

despite all these, she braved through them.. courageously.. :D and decided against her parents', teachers', friends', and even her boyfriend's initial wishes, that she was keeping the baby..

a very touching story.. reminds us of the consequences of sexual activities as minors.. :D am i a minor? hmm.. shiranai desu ne~

i cried towards the end.. not as much as 1 Litre of Tears, though.. :D

both a must-watch.. :D


anws, that's all..

parents are getting irritating..
what's the use of waking up so early in the morning if you have nothing to do? haiizz..


love,
EFJ

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11:51 am

just want to say a few things here :D


NI JU NI SAI NO TANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU, KAMENASHI KAZUYA - SAN.. HAHA :D






hurhur.. yepp :D that's him.. the other pretty boy that Rashila-ses likes :D hehh.. yeaa..


soo.. ermm. yeaa. haha. :D


and..


atashi wa hontou ni ureshii desu.. kyaa..

haha :D





himm.. yeaa. him.. the other pretty one :P yeaa.. he's gonna be a bad boy, yeaa. hahaks :D

yeaaa.. he's gonna appear in Gokusen 3, as(i suspect) the 'leader' of the class/gang.. just like Baka-chan :D and Turtle :D and Arashi-bait :D

ahhh.. haha
and guess what! he's like 18 in Mar!! kyaa!! hahakz :P

huhu! woohoo! :P


but my hubby is still that guy up there.. yeaa.. whose picture is on top the the page/blog :D
heehee.. i think he's too gorgeous for my health lahh.. haha :P

ok.. that's it :D kyaa.. haha :D


tanjoubi omedetou ne~, Turtle-chan :D


love,
EFJ

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2:28 pm

there are a few confessions i have to make:

`i am addicted to milk.

`i am addicted to youghurt(the Mickey Mouse one :D)

`i am addicted to JDorama

`i am in love with Nishihara :D (Faisal(band) would know what i mean)

`ermm..

`i have given up hope

`i have given up on waiting

`i don't know what to do

`i'm very bored

`amazingly, i feel happy when my sister's around.. who knows why

`amazingly, i get all hyper at home, with my sister.. god knows why.. and it's pretty scary.. :P

`amazingly, i think my sister and i are getting along fine.. i don't know why

`i miss MI

`i miss MISB(somehow)

i think that's all.. hehh.. so much for 'a few' :D well, anyways, i've finished yet another drama, Nodame Cantabile.. super farnie :D.. and ermm.. i'm patiently waiting for someone to upload Gekidan Engimono and Shabake heehee

gyabooo xD

ok.. that's it :D





love,

EFJ

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7:32 am

ok.. it's decided..

i am officially a 5-year-old bitch/whore/slut.. or whatever it is that the phrases, 'perempuan sundal' and 'perempuan tepi jalan' mean to you..


other than that, i have been posted to my seventh choice, which is Ngee Ann Polytechnic, in the Academic School of Humanities, under the Early Childhood Education Course. hmm.. whatever is good about that course, i seriously have no idea..

i've tried appealing, but it seems that i can't.. apperently, i can't appeal to any of the courses of my choice. hmph. well, it's okay.

as Diaz said, there is always a reason why i am given this choice. although if possible, i would really like to change it to the course of my choice.

i can never see the future. nor can i ascertain it. there's always the possibility that i would like this course after all.. there's always the possibility that i can go through the 'back door' as Diaz so nicely put it..

i just hope i don't spot this one bitch, as Hilmi and i have agreed. apperently, he/she goes to that school as well, though he/she is in his/her last year there. the thought of having the possibility of meeting or seeing him/her drives me nuts.

well, on a lighter note, NP has a concert band. that's ermm.. okay(?) i think. haha. well, if it is not, there's still the Japanese Tsubasa Club. :D i'd like to join that.. if not both. :D

hmm.. well, congratz to all those who got the courses of their choice.


and i miss him.. seriously.. i miss him. i miss her. i miss you. i miss us. i miss them. i miss everyone.

i want to meet my mummy and daddy and maid and older brother.

ouhh.. yeaa. haha. i chatted with Hilmi yesterday. he's a very smart and intellectual person.. and pretty talkative too and funny.. and he said he's hyper.. haha.. i never knew him to be like that. ohh well i have never exactly chatted with him.. it's weird, though.. he's like.. practically the same age as my older brother.. hmm.. it's so weird.. :P sorry..

there's also a new member in the Cynase Club. :P


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
4:10 pm

ohmigosh!! gahh! :P

they're like.. gawd!!

alahh.. Japanese bands.. standard arh.. haha..

that's Nishihara Marching Band..

this is Aichi Meiden Symphonic Band..

both my favourite bands.. besides my AICB and MISB, of course :D

i'm so proud of Illya :D she's brought the band, which has been brought down by our batch, up. :D i love you, honey.. :)

ermm.. other than that,

he is cute, no? he's exactly 11 years older than me.. he's born on the 14th of January 1980, exactly 11 years before me, who was born on the 14th of January 1991 :D yeaa, i like to complicate things. it's in my nature.. i can't help it :P

Tamaki Hiroshi. the 'hero', or one of the main character in this romantic comedy about this orchestra from this Music Academy in Japan, Nodame Cantabile.. the story's like super cool larh.. and the band.. power rabak.. it's so cute. :D and funny.. i love it. :D

that's it for this post..

p.s. i want to give up on you. but i can't i miss you. but i hate you. what should i do?

love,

EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
1:10 pm

awww.. so sweet.. let's just hope the girlfriend doesn't see this.. huhuhaha :D

soo... those are the pictures taken yesterday, 140208, Vdae.

well, Vdae was fun.. haha.. watched Vacancy until finished during Eng Lit, did nothing for SeAn Hist, because the teacher wasn't there :D. so we played Uno, Heart Attack, and camwhored. heeheehaha.. actually, losers had to do the MI Mass Chacha Dance.. but JMark person didn't want to.. -.-; so in the end, Yanning, Pearlyn, Esther, Atricia, Melanie and i danced the chacha.. haha. Esther, Yanning and i became the 'guy' whilst the rest became the 'girl'. :D Yanning-Pearlyn, Esther-Atricia, Me-Melaniei'm surprised i actually remembered all the steps except one: the front-over-turn-5-6-7-8.. heehee.. and we watched Outsource for Mgt.. haha.. it's all about cultural barriers and stuffs, when outsourcing another country.. :D

anyways, Yanning, and Esther each gave everyone an ice-cream stick with message.. haha.. Pearlyn gave us a note and something she baked herself.. so sweet right? ahhahha.. awww.. :D Faisal gave each of us a Toblerone.. Miss Arfah gave us this box of Cadbury chocolates to share amongst ourselves.. yummy! ahhahha.. awww... :D sweet person.. Mr. Raj gave each of us a Ferrero Rocher.. woow.. :D he's a sweet person.. heeheehaha.. :D he's farnie lahh.. he asked who didn't have any date, and i was the first person to answer.. haha.. then he said, it's ok.. 1 day soon, or sth like that.. haha :D

hmm.. what else.. nothing much.. ouhh... yeaah.. the pictures you saw up there^, yeaa.. we celebrated Syafiqah's birthday. her birthday falls on 160208.. like Aliff :D.. but today, Diaz had soccer with his friends, and tomorrow, Syafiqah has a wedding to go to.. so we celebrated it yesterday, in lieu with Valentine's Day.. haha.. aww :D

the day before, Diaz, Azimah and I went to Diaz's house to bake the brownie.. but it was.. ermm.. spoilt? haha... so his mum suggested chocolate coating.. but after that, we were like, maybe we do some decorations.. like write, 'Happy Birthday Fiqah' or something like that.. haha. but we wouldn't be able to see it once it freezes.. so in the end, Diaz just took the knife(used to spread the coating), and drew a rising sun.. haha.. but it was still plain.. -.-; so we decided to decorate it with rainbow rice, and white-chocolate chips.. explains the 'colourful' brownie.. heeheehaha.

we were short of candles.. so we decided to put 1 in the 'sun', representing 10. the other 7, we put in between the lines. coincidentally, there were 7 spaces.. haha.

Syafiqah was speechless.. :D she loves us.. aww... heyy.. can't blame her, though. we're sweet people.. who doesn't love us? :P

just now, Aishah, Faisal's cousin gave me chocolates.. so sweet.. :D she's so sweet lahh..

i have a feeling i regret not putting MI as my 2nd choice.. i'm in love with MI already.. :( and Monday's gonna be our last day together :(.. i hope we'll keep in touch. and that you guys remember me.. especially the seniors.. and my 'family' :D.. i want one last MI Mass Dance together.. please.. with Monday being our last day and all.. and we won't exactly get to see each other as often after that.. :'( after school on Monday, Miss Arfah's going to give us a treat at.... Swensen's!! whee!! ahhahha.. be jealous, my friends.. be VERY jealous.. heeheehaha!! huhu! :P ok.. stop it, Faiezah.. :P

people.. i plan to bake brownies and bring on Monday.. heehee :D.. so Diaz, you won't get to taste MY brownie.. heeheehaha :P

there are many things that i want..

~i want a Flintstones outing.. maybe during March holidays.. at a chalet or just a simple picnic/barbecue..

~i want a clarinet section outing.. March holidays? Mummy.. please.. :D

~i want to do the MI Mass Chacha Dance one last time.. all the PAE students and their OGLs gather together to do the dance one last time on Monday, before we all leave..

~i want to go out with the 7 pumpkins..

~i want FRIED MARS BARS!!! Syafiqah! you got me addicted and craving.. hmph. *scrunches nose*

i love to scrunch my nose.. god know why :D

p.s. i think i've given up hope on you.

love,

EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
3:43 pm

p.s.


i have something else to say...


i think i like you.. :D


nono.. i'm not talking about Ueda..



i think i like him... what should i do? hmm.. he's like.. i know him.. hehh.. :D

it's not like i'm admiring him from afar or anything like that.. we're like talking.. haha. we chat.. :D

ouhh.. mann.. what should i do? i don't think i've ever felt this way.. even with R.. =


ouhh.. wells.. anyways, hee.. i think i like him.. hurhur.. and ermm.. friends, please don't mention his name on my tagboard.. haha.. :P please.. don't. not many other people know.. hee..



ok.. bye.. sorry.. these two posts have been random. =)



p.s. i think i do. but i don't know. why do you make me feel this way?


ouhh.. nooo... i forgot.. oops.. sorry, mum. sorry, dad..



HAPPY 21ST WEDDING ANNIVERSARY, MAMA AND BABA!!! :D

may you guys have many many more happy years ahead together.. :) awww...

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
1:30 pm

i am in love... haha.. sorry. i'm a little random..





but it's true.. i seriously am.. in love.. hehh.. with who? with him! HIM.! H.I.M.!! HIM!! heehee..


that super duper adorable-ly gorgeous dude who i am in love with.. haha.. :P


he's my Mr. Gorgeous. :D seriously. and i am in love with him. =)





yess.. that is him.. my Mr. Gorgeous. he's like.. adorably gorgeous :D he's cute. adorable. he looks childish, somehow. but at the same time, he has this gorgeous outlook about him.. gahh!! it's so complicated. i don't know how to describe him. that's what makes him so attractive. the complicacy(if there is such a word) about him. he's so simple yet so complicated. gahh.. i'm in love with him :D and i so loooove his smile can? haha.. so CUTE!! it's like very rare. urgh! :P






the one on the left is Rashilah's.. the one on the right is mine. hee :D




Ueda Tatsuya is the 'U' of KAT-TUN, which is a Japanese boyband made of six of Johnny's boys, whose surnames' first letters make up the group name. :D read slowly, part by part if you wish. =)

hence, i am Mrs. Ueda.. HAHAH!! anyways, he's my Mr. Gorgeous. :P for now.. haha :D


but there's one sad thing about this love. it's a totally one-sided love. i don't even have a chance. :(

he's like 25 this year. :( nonono.. that's not the saddest part.. the thing is.. i'm like 8 years younger than him.. and...

he...


he.. prefers....



o..

o..

older women!!!!










UWAHH!!!!


*sobs* *sniffs* *cries* *wails*


nevermind.. it's ok.. i'll just love him from afar. ... i'm a positive person.. *weak smile*



p.s. no matter what.. i still love you..



love, sincerely,
EFJ
*sniffs*
*weak smile*

♥;*~♪~*;♥
1:19 pm

i really appreciate these few weeks with you guys. it really made me happy. although i never really talked to some of you, i just want to say thank you for welcoming me and making me feel part of the family.

thank you, Mummy. thank you, Daddy thank you, 'Maid' haha. thank you, brother. you guys really make me feel happy.

Hilmi, Keng Guan(is that how you spell it?), Farhana, Abu, Naveen(is that how you spell it?), and many others i might have forgotten to mention along the way.. even though some of you only talked to me like once(?) or seldom.. you still talked to me. although about very random topics. haha. thank you. even though we only started talking on 'my last day' at Pasta, we still talked. i really appreciate it. and ermm.. let's not bring up the 'bitch'. haha.

the performance, although(no offence) was a little sucky, i must admit, i was really happy to have performed with you guys. it was great. every practice was fun. and the morning was exhilirating(although torture for me because of cynase. urgh! *rolls eyes*) that was the first time i performed in MI haha. i didn't know what to expect :P

i still remember Hilmi asking everyone to sit down first, and calm down. after our performance. haha. i still remember Faisal's solo.. wooh! haha. yeaa.. and after that. i remember depriving James and Yvonne of their chocolates. haha. and Yizhen saying our section is quite united. yeaa.. i guess so.. and i am glad to be part of it. :D

i am glad to know all of you. thank you for just being there. even though the band's only about 2 years old, i'm glad it existed and introduced you guys to me.

i know this post is like so mushy and feeling2.. but who cares. i'm letting out my feelings here. so bear with me. i hope we meet again someday. i miss you guys. especially my mummy and daddy and maid and brother. mummy.. don't argue with daddy anymore lehh.. :D

anyways, i don't know what else to write. i do hope you get my drift, though :D

to summarize it all, i really appreciate everything, and thank you. :D i hope we'll meet again some day :)

mummy.. let's have a section outing! maybe during the holidays or something :D i miss you all.

all the best to all of you for your common tests. :)

love,
EFJ

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11:07 am

*The Princess*

Nur Faiezah
Capricorn Goat
sinfully.innocent@hotmail.com
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