Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Twitter

the more i twit, the less i blog :)

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10:58 pm



Monday, July 27, 2009

mychonny. ><

alright.

humans all over the world should really go YouTube and watch this YouTuber, mychonny.

he's so retarded. and that's a compliment. =D shit i love his videos..



hughug. =D ok now i'm confused. thanks to you. shit you. must start training.. then i can run away from you.. =DDD



love,
EFJ

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12:29 am



Friday, July 24, 2009

not worth the bother. really. i'm supposed to be finishing my assignments and here i am, wondering what the fuck i did wrong..


it's really unfair, what you're doing to me.

CAN YOU JUST MAN UP AND TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED?! bloody ass.

can't believe i put so much hope into this. i've been disappointed yet again. i can't believe for the third time already. thank you so much for the experience. i've put so much trust in you and this is what i get. thanks loads. i can't believe i actually believed your mushy crap. fuckin' ass..

i should stop thinking and wondering about you. really. you have no more meaning in my life. really.

can't believe i was so worried for nothing.


love,
EFJ

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1:19 am



Tuesday, July 21, 2009

bad girl gone good

i've been a very good girl lately.. been sleeping very very early. :)

ok. midnight isn't exactly early, but in my case, it's very VERY early, ok.. even my sister can't believe i'm sleeping almost the same time as her, if not earlier -.-'

i haven't been waking up early, though. ><


okokok. 3 days to pay back and about a month to Ramadhan.. anyone wanna fast wimme?? xD


PROJECTS~ rawrs~

nights~

love,
EFJ

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12:00 am



Sunday, July 19, 2009

TANGO~

been obsessed with tango ever since Wei Jie and Rizuan played La Cumparsita in the clubhouse ages ago.. rawrs >.<


i like how they played with the hat. xD




abit anti-climax.. but there you go.. MISS THE OLD CLUBHOUSE!! boohoo =((




don't ask. i don't know why it's there too.. >.<

rawrs~ TANGO TANGO! anyone wanna tango? hahaha xD

Goblet of Fire in 2 hours! xD hello humans. your Robert Pattinson will be one of the less-main main characters in there. -.-'

ok bye. =D

love,
EFJ


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5:26 pm



Saturday, July 18, 2009

of course you would rather i stay at home than go to school. things would actually get done. the house actually gets cleaned. when i'm not at home, nothing gets done. right? GO ASK YOU FUCKIN' LAZY WIFE TO DO IT PLEASE. i'm not your wife. i don't fuck you. i'm a teen-aged girl who needs freedom. bloody ass.


love,
EFJ

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3:37 pm



Friday, July 17, 2009

not worth it

ok. i have decided. this is what i'm going to do...


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i guess silence really is the best option..

goodbye, humans.

fuckin' bitch. i don't get humans. when things are done and more, i don't get any appreciation. not even a 'thank you' or a smile. when i don't do things, you claim i never do my job, and i never do my job properly. you used to come up with stupid excuses like i do it better than some. and now, you keep commenting that i can't do my job properly. fuck you. when all i wanted was some recognition from you. you would rather i stay up late doing chores than stay up late doing assignments. you don't believe me and scold me for staying late in school doing projects and studying. and you expect results. amazing, ehh, some humans.

love,
EFJ

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12:36 am



Thursday, July 16, 2009

i hate days when i wake up to their voices or i hear their voices the first thing in the morning. rahh~


woke up early in the morning, and i heard her voice. and it's not "good morning, did you have a nice sleep? what time's your class today?" it's, "have you collected all the dishes?" and she said that while i was washing the dishes.

after that, wanted to take my pad. idk why all pads are in her room. the door wasn't closed, so i just pushed in and entered. and she scolded me, coz she was changing. i was like, it's not MY fault she didn't close the door and i didn't know.. thought she was just lying down or something.. rahh~ if the door was, say, closed, at least, i would've knocked first, right. she didn't close properly, larhs. there was a big gap. i'm so pissed. grawr~



fuck. btw. first time i'm on time for FM. but it makes no difference 'coz i'm not paying attention. rawrs~

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10:05 am



Wednesday, July 15, 2009

rahh~

yes, mother. you just justified my reason for not wanting to be home as much as possible. thank you for that. i was wondering if i was just being unreasonable and selfish. =)



nonono. i will not should not must not can not think about you. no. not anymore. i don't want to. you have disappointed me. i don't want to go on. it hurts. =((

sleepless nights come to me. effect of this semester's starting to show. tired like fuck, sleepless nights, stress non-stop, assignments rushing, deadlines drawing near. and i haven't even started studying for my exams. =(( 'specially Financial Management. rawrs. nonono. no repeats. no debarments =(( and my language's gone haywire.. Ms Ann's gonna kill me. Parallelism not seen here.. TERM PAPER!!! rahh~ ok i should stop ranting before anything happens. bye, world. last paper's on 24th August. both papers in the afternoon. wth?

love,
EFJ

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2:30 pm



Monday, July 13, 2009

perfect day.


SIMPLY PERFECT! could this day get any better???

Internet connection's as slow as a virgin getting fucked. MSN just hung, Office Word's slower than a woman giving birth to her first child, everyone's ignoring me like i'm bacteria...

and i've got assignments with due dates overlapping one another. 'specially now that BCE falls on the day of one of our presentations.. AWESOME! rawrs. NO FOOD TOMORROW AND FINISH UP PRESENTATION!!!! STAY BACK TOMORROW AND FINISH UP PRESENTATION!!! rawrs.

i wonder if you'll still consider. you'll need loadsa free time, i'm very demanding, i'm very difficult to keep up with, and i'm very troublesome to hold on to.. still want? up to you =) honestly, i think it's only thoughts of you that make me smile everyday. and NO~ it doesn't mean what you THINK it means.. don't think too much. xD
to be honest, i don't want to think about you. no. not anymore.

honestly, i really don't know.. don't ask me now. not now. i'm too stressed to think about anything else. i don't want to think about this now.

babe. don't bother. been there, done that. 'specially now that i've you and them, i can live through it. really. =)

whatever it is, i'm just a phone call/SMS away, ok.. don't sadsad. i give you hughug. =)

Mr. OR-HOR arhh.. thanks for the listening ear and the stories. you really the damn retarded, ehh~ tsk. and again, anything just call/SMS me. =)

and no sleep tonight either. nights, humans. =)

love,
EFJ

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11:48 pm



Monday, July 06, 2009

thanks, 'gratz and sorries

it's DONE.

it all boiled down to that 2+ hours of performance. 3 months of practice for 2+ hours of performance. i wanna thank everyone who have put so much hardwork and commitment into this concert. i believe it was awesome. we should do that more. i know the process was torture for some(or most) but the product was simply awesome. sadly though, not much camwhoring for me. =(

anyways, thank you everyone for all your hardwork and guidances. and thank you to all who have encouraged me and put so much faith and trust in me. i hope i didn't disappoint any of you.

'gratz to Ansar for the awesome solos. it's ok, hunn. it was good. keep up the good work. =)
'gratz to Shuning for her one-stands. more solos coming up for you. hehehehe.
'gratz to Joseph for pulling off the Eb parts pretty well.
'gratz to Ben Toh for the awesome arrangements.
'gratz to all the soloists.
'gratz to Azri for the Anastasia. hahaha.

thanks to Ansar, Hui Fang, Ben Toh, Nazri, Fifi, Charissa and Elynn and some other humans i've forgotten for the constant encouragement and faith. hope i did well. =(

thanks to Suhaida and Sufiyan for coming. =)

and finally, i'm so proud of my clarinetists who have worked so hard for this concert. thanks for all your hardwork. and i hope to see more of your faces. =D ensemble performance coming up. JIAYOU JIAYOU! =D



on another note,

i'm sorry i've been troubling you and rushing you. it's ok. i doubt i'll bother myself and interefere in your work anymore. everything's up to you now. whatever happens is solely your responsibility. bye.

and i'm sorry i've been bothering you guys. i understand if you don't want to anymore.


goodbye.


love,
EFJ

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2:46 am