ARGH!!!

*pulls hair out*

NO CHOCOLATE!!!
NO MILK!!!
NO ICE-CREAM!!!

NO

VITAMILK!!!!!!!


i'm depressed.. thoroughly depressed.. grawrr..

just finished cleaning the fridge.. haha.. seriously.. now hafta focus on my room.. graargh! my sister's stuffs are driving my insanely crazy.. =D

YESS!!! THAT(!!) is the condition of my room the night before the night before Raya ^.^ and the night before Raya, i don't sleep, clearing everything.. and most of the stuffs you see are my sister's stuffs.. after Os, i have hardly anything.. so yeaa.. been like more than half a year since i started bugging her to clear her things and throw what she doesn't want.. apparently, nothing's happened.. you can see.. i HAVE tried doing so.. just chunking her things to her side.. but it always seems to be centralised after about 3 hours.. seriously.. 3 freaking HOURS! sis enters room, ransacks for her stuffs, and abracadabra, it becomes like that again. and I have to clear it up. AGAIN. graargh! i hate my bed.. seriously.. it's big.. yes.. but i can't sleep in it.
1) it's HARD!!
2) my sis just can't keep to her space. i always get woken up by her kicks and punches.. grawr.
3) it cramps my room.. seriously. i want that double-decker back! i sleep better in that.. seriously.. rawr. and it takes up less space.. hrmm...
i can't do much 'bout my table and wardrobe. coz it's built-in.. thanks, arh, mumsie.. i have too many big-sized tees. all handed down from mumsie.. they're too big fer me.. *sighs*

got bored. my display picture was this:

then Tia said it was random.. so changed:

and then, she asked me to take a picture of myself.. so it became this:

hahaha.. yeaa..
and then i webcamwhored.. too many pictures liao.. lazy to upload.. haha..

Abang's mad.. coz he bought a skinny without knowing it was a skinny.. haha.. looks seriously tapered when on him.. he planned to wear that with baju raya this year.. i gave him that what-the-fuck? look.. haha :P he wore with striped short-sleeved tee, and he became Mat maha Mat maut punye Mat. haha :P

kayy.. peace.. idk what else to blog about..

but i'm seriously like serious seriously depressed.. ARGH!!!

NO VITAMILK!!!

my life's just been crushed. life has lost its meaning..


nnaahh... still got that Pizza Hut meal Di owes me.. HAHA!! see.. me mentions it.. ^.^ deal ain't off.. ^.^


love,
EFJ

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2:00 am

SUPERRANDOMSHIZZOLICIOUS

and AGAIN, i ALMOST signed in to blogger using my NPNet userID.. now do i miss school or whuutt..? hahaha..


1) Wei Xing somewhat bugged me to go DnD coz he was going... Weikit said imma die.. coz i didn't go.. hahaha.. you'll still see me, larh, loser.. =D just not the whole of next week.. teehee.. p.s. he 'cried'.. HAHAHA!! =D i'm loved.. awww-ness.. ^.^"


apparently, everyone(or almost) was shocked i wasn't going.. pepoll!! Raya's coming!! i hafta prepare!! bleargh. =D

Azri said there's practice on Thursday.. he GIILAA or whuut?? 2nd day of Raya.?!
*$#%^!

Ansar, you'd better count your lucky stars Elaine and Peiwen came today.. or you know what'll happen..

p.s. David is super lazy can? had to drag him to enter the band room.. Steven kept asking about him.. haha..

and you count your lucky stars TOO, Ansar, you didn't come.. you ARSEHOLE.. played Sleepers Awake.. bleargh.. had to help Peiwen with the starting.. coz she's playing 1st stand.. and i've somewhat played that piece before.. haha.. but i went back to my score once the semi-demis arrived.. BUAHAHA! evil evil me ^.^ peace.

and then, we played Japanese Graffiti IX. oo..kaayy..larhh.. =D

and then some Portrait song.. i think it's Coplan Portrait or something.. bleargh.. David said he's played the orchestral version before..

there is ONE part i truly hate.. brings back memories of concert with NPStrings.. gyeargh! the Pirates of the Caribbean; a Symphonic Suite.. II,III part.. i'm sure everyone knows which part of that song i hate the most.. hahaha.. but instead of triplets, this song has SEMIQUAVERS!! whee.. -.-' and David said it's supposed to be played by violins, viola, and cello.. or something like that.. hahaha.

ouhh.. ehh.. minah.. Steven asked about you too.. haha.. he was like, "the boy never come?" at first, i was like, "what boy?? =/" budDEN, i realised that the ONLY clarinetists that have been religiously going for practices are you and me.. hahaha.. your sugadaddy also asked about you. when i said you weren't coming, he said you had to bake kuih.. HAHA!! oklarh.. bake Halal Muachi(spelling??) hahaha.. use HALAL peanuts ONLY. or i won't eat.. HAHAHA!! ok.. lame.. blearghh..



hrmm...

2) MY CRAVING FOR CHOCOLATE WAFFLES HAS BEEN SATISFIED!!! WHEE!!! ^.^ and that is ONLY because there was no food at home.. bleargh..

EHH!! the chocolate waffles at Yishun is nice, okehh!! the one behind Yishun GV(behind Northpoint), in front of the Comix Connection.. haha.. SERIOUSLY, lorhh!! it's CRISPY! and their serving of CHOCOLATES is SERIOUSLY generous.. but i was a little disappointed today.. waffle not as crispy.. can tell from the looks.. and not as generous a serving as the other lady.. rawr..



3) i miss the Co2 babies.. hahaha.. seriously.. but i truly truly hate the new timetable..

Wednesday only one module.. ONE FREAKING module.. 2 hours.. FOUR-P-M to SIX-P-M. WHAT.
THE.
F*?!!
#$^%*&

Friday 2-6.
WHAT.
THE.
F*?!!
#$^%*&!

I WANT TO GO HOME EARLY ON FRIDAYS LARHH CANN?!



4) Sapporo High Students coming!!! can't wait!! ponning classes!!! whee!! hahaha.. :P



5) have yet to hear any news about HMS Leadership camp.. bleargh..



6) okehh.. i miss my boyfriend.. ^.^ FARAH!! i miss my boyfriend!! cutecutestuff.. hahaha. :P


and if you have noticed(obviously) this post has been NOTHING but random.. haha.. peace. ^.^ got nothing, larhh.. i just type what goes on in my mind..


7) i want to fetch Di.. but i can't.. grrawr.. i guess you'd just have to hold that Pizza Hut treat you owe me.. YESSAH!!! ahhahha.. =D


8) i seriously hate going to Mustafa Centre. it's stuffy, it's cramped, and it's full of... but the things there are killer prices.. just that it's seriously messy..

9) hmmm.. got nothing else to write..


10) just wanted to complete it.. haha.. i haven't heard any news from Afidah about the upcoming events.. =/


haha.. okehh.. 10 things.. hahaha.. sorry for the super random, super messy post.. heyy.. it's very difficult to find random posts in my blog nowadays, okayy ^.^.. sorry for the length, peepoll! hahaha.. peace. ^.^

[edit]
I GOT A NEW PAIR OF SLIPPERS!!! at below $10.. haha.. cheapp okehh! and it's pretty ^.^ hahaha.
WARNING: if you want to go shopping with me, make sure the items are not more than $10.. hahaha. i buy nothing above $10(except maybe when food is involved:P i lorve food.. sue me.. =D) ^.^


love,
EFJ

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3:38 am

Yaoi-ism

i tried signing in to my blogger using my NP userID.. now how COOL is that?! hahaha.. peace..


anyway, as the title states.. Yaoi Madness.. kyaa~


NOT!

I was watching Moulin Rouge - Lady Marmalade video when i saw this:



showed it to my sister when she was getting ready for school(note: it was after Subuh, so.. we've already started fasting for the day.. teehee) and this was the outcome:


hahaha.. she's a Naruto freak can? willing to watch 200+ episodes PLUS 70+ Shippuudens.. bleargh.

i am an evil evil sister.. i have done my role perfectly.. i made her crazy ^.^ peace.

hahaha.. anyway, yerpz.. that's it, i guess.. hahaha.. toodles! =D

p.s. HAPPY SWEET SEVENTEENTH, EVIA NATRA!! hahaha peace.

love,
EFJ

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6:49 am

pissed

i just got home.

i'm tired.

i'm almost dead.

and

i'm super pissed..


bleargh..

1) the whole day today(starting from after Dawn), i only had less than 50oml of mineral water. that's it.. no food, no snacks whatsoever. hahh.. so much for waffle-ing to school.. bleargh..

2) wtf is wrong with the bus services today?? seriously.. waited for 171 at Shell bustop, 2 184 passed, 0 171.. in the end, took 184 to Bukit Panjang, and waited for 171, all hopeful.. arrived BP at 2325. waited and waited and waited like waiting for a rooster to lay an egg.. 14 minutes(estimated longest interval between two 171 buses after 1900) passed.. no 171 in sight. finally, at 2345, 1 pathetic 171 arrived. alright.. fine.. whatever.
had to stop at.. well.. wherever i stopped at(2 bustops(i think) before Northpoint) 'coz mummy wanted me to buy ice at 7-11.. bla bla bla.. wanted to buy some snacks.. coz.. well.. hmm...
anyway, found out that 5kg of ice cost a blurdhy $4.80. and i had five-pathetic-bucks wimme. bleargh.. so couldn't afford anything else.. fine.. whatever..
so walked back to the opposite bustop to wait for 969 home. bla bla bla. promised last bus at approximately 0020. arrived the bustop at 0005. at 0025, still no 969 bus. instead, 2 858 passed..
AND MY HANDS WERE ACTING UP AGAIN!! ITCHING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINES.. rawr..
bla bla bla. finally took the 3rd 858 and alighted opposite 3M Building.
had to walk all the way back home, carrying FIVE-KILOGRAMS of FROZEN H2O.
the plastic was tearing apart, so had to carry the ice.. well.. but it was blurdhy cold. so.. well.. bleargh..

3) got home. kept the ice in the freezer(omfg. can't she just buy it tomorrow or sth??). got scolded coz i didn't break the ice properly.. literally.. no pun intended. anyway, i was like, "the ice's too big, how to put properly??" and she replied very nicely, "just use your head, laa"
O.M.F.G.
tell me to calm down, people. rawr.
soo.. hoorah.. i'm home. safely. in one piece. tired. FAMISHED. dying.
and i found out..
the rice hasn't been cooked!! noone helped me to cook! yayy!! hap-pi-ness! whee!
and the dishes are all over the sink! *jumps up and down*
and mum kept bugging me to cook rice and wash the dishes.. she's too tired already... awww.. poor mummy.. so tired..

let's see..
Wednesday night i couldn't sleep. so i 'woke' up at 4, to prepare the pre-dawn meal.. throughout the meal, she kept telling my dad that i didn't sleep the whole night. gee.. thanks, for your concern, mum.. but you've got to count your lucky stars i didn't.. you couldn't even wake up.. puh-lease, larhh.. so heyho the merry 'O.. solat Subh, went online, until mummy forced me to sleep.
slept, woke up at 1400. washed the dishes, kept the folded clothes, swept the house, prepared the ingredients for her to cook. 1800, left the house for practice.
met Ansar, Hazmi, Wei Xing at Westmall Subway.. they had already finished eating when i arrived, and was waiting for Latiff's call.. bla bla bla. reached school at 2030. practiced, everything ended around 2145. something happened.. bla bla bla. went to makan. well, they makan-ed. i didn't. coz well.. mummy asked to buy ice. was afraid i wouldn't have enough cash.
and then, number 2 and 3 happened..

mummy, what have you been through? morning, woke up just to ermm.. reheat sambal. ate. watched TV. used comp. slept. woke up. gave me instructions. slept. woke up. cooked. ate. baked kuih raya.. hmm.. interesting..

p.s. please learn to look for things yourself.. gahh..! i wasn't even at home larh cann?

hahaha..

this post's totalleh messed up.. well, I'm totally messed up right now.. and that idiot's coming back only on the 28th.. blearh.. there's practice on Saturday.. wahh.. FUCK! if i'm not wrong, someone said there wouldn't be any practice coz it's DnD.. rawr.. don't so EXTRA cann??

and HAZMI!! YOUR BLURDHY STRAP'S WIMME!!! confirm time and venue to meet before 26th September 2008; 2359

happy birthday, Sophia Low Hui Zhi! hahaha.. p.s. first time in God-knows-how-long since i last wished someone through my blog.. ahhahha.. peace. ^.^


love,
EFJ

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2:16 am

what is up with that FR EXPOSED bitch?! GAHH!!!


i'm so sorry, fellow friends, if that idiot(FR EXPOSED) has ever tagged you.. forget the tag. leave it. delete it if you know how to.. rawr..

and i haven't even done my chores.. rawr..

mummy's gonna kill me ^.^ toodles! =D

p.s. SHILAA!!! YAMAPI'S HOTT!!! I WANNA WATCH KUROSAGI!!! hayaku kudasai.. onegaishimasu! =D

gyeargh. yes, darling.. i can assure you i'll squeal at every sight of my P-chan ^.^
yes, i did swear in one of my previous post, but i said i'll TRY.. and i DID!! i seriously DID!! try.. (not)
but how to, if i squeal when i see an AD?! o.m.g. i need help.. gahh.. i need to look at boys my age.. but i can't help it..

HEYY!! even Lizzie's BOYFRIEND said Kurosaki's hot.. gyeargh.. gomen, Lizzie.. had to use Sam.. :P

i mean.. see what i meann? ^.^ so let's watch it soon, ok? =D soooooooooooooooooooonnn.. as in.. As Soon As Possible ^.^ like.. very verY veRY vERY VERY soon ^.^

maido ari. *smiles*

kyaa~! *faints*


love,
EFJ

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11:24 pm

i don't think i've ever felt so disappointed, in my life.. thanks for the experience..



love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
6:06 am

F*

GAHH!!

FUCK OFF!!!

don't be such a bitch just 'coz you're tired. seriously.

F

U

C

K

OFF!!

my throat hurts from trying not to cry. so i'm giving in.

i'm crying myself to sleep tonight. g'night.


p.s. and when i needed you most....


love,
EFJ

p.p.s. i got a classic for the *-obvious questions-*;
you see me at the bus station, and you ask, "you taking the bus?" - "aiyo.. i'm waiting for my jet, deyy."

sorry, minah.

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11:16 pm

i hate cleaning fishes.. gahh.. and chicken.. (siang ikan ayam)

not all fish.. just those i have to remove the insides from. and chicken. rawr. i have to remove the fats. lest I can't eat it.. grr... ouhh.. i hate siang-ing ikan ayam-ayam too.. argh!! removing the gills can kill. anyway, after cleaning those fishes and chicken, my hands'll itch like nobody's business.. grr.. now, my sister cleans squids(and rapes them :P) and prawns. because i can't.. rawr!




anyone going for the Dinner and Dance(withOUT the dance??) on the 27th? do tell what happened. i'd like to be amused. haha.. i was hoping the reason for me not going is because SOMEONE is coming.. but it was changed to the 28th.. so now, i have nothing to do on the 27th..
rawr.
and i ain't wasting my 10bucks on FOOD and games.. rawr. i doubt it'll even be fun..but what could be worse than Graduation Night '08? stupid noisy rock bands from school, lousy music, FORMAL CASUAL, school hall, FIVEbucks entrance fees, fried bee hoon(standard for ANY occasion).. ouhh yess.. 'twas the BOMB... -.-

and THAT was why i HATED Formal Casual.. EVERY event we had was Formal Casual.. even CO concert in '06, i think.. Formal Casual.. how very nice..

rawr.. anyway.. $10. i could buy a pretty top.. or save a few more bucks and i have a new pair of jeans.. or shoes.. i can even cut my hair with TENBUCKS! gahh.. see how much worth that 10bucks is? yes, darling.. i'm a cheapskate. shoot me ^.^ haven't you guys read that line somewhere before?? ahha..


i'm seriously rethinking the value of Saturday practices.. what's the use of having Saturday practices when only the conductor goes regularly? gosh.. might as well not have any practices.. that poor guy has a life too.. and yeaa.. i'm NEVER early for practices. but heyy.. at least i go, okehh, Ansar!!

ouhh.. happy birthday, minah.. haha.. been a long time since i last wished anyone happy birthday on my blog.. hmm..

hmm...

should i join SSWYouth? Faisal wants AI to dominate the once-YCK-dominated-band.. lol.. he also said Fi once wanted an AIAlumni band.. it was even approved by Heng.. i heard that too.. but apparently, i haven't heard any news from it.. Faisal wants to set up a new volleyball team too.. anyone interested? haha.. i'm promoting, okehh.. haha..

hmmm..!!!

i had two dreams.

one was that we had a LOT of reeds.. i once asked the QM(NPCB) for a new reed.. he gave me 1 packet. inside were 3 reeds. all of the same thickness. 3.5(i use 3.5). so 3 reeds, and only one reedguard. haha.. 1 Bb clar reed, 1 Eb clar reed, and 1 Bass Clar reed.. ahhahha.. yes, all three was in the packet. only the Bb clar reed was in the guard. the other two were just by themselves.. lol.
somehow reminds me of Saturday practice... right, ANSAR.. do you want to tell, or should i tell? or should it just be a secret among you, me, and David.. kakaka..
p.s. DAVID'S COMING BACK!! coz an alumni asked him to perform.. whee! thanks, alumni! ^.^
ouhh.. can someone help me tell Fauzi that Beatrice and Xue Er wish to play as well? haha.

and another one.. well, i'm too lazy to type it out.. ask Farah if you want. yes, Tia.. she's from your class.. haha..

p.s. I MISS MY BABY!!! =D gahh.. been a long time since i last saw him.. ahh.. i miss my boyfriend*hush hush*.. he's the cutest thing on Earth ^.^ rawr.. =D peace.

OUHH!! i hate it when people ask the obvious.. it's so irritating. here are some examples:

~i'm cooking, and you ask, "Kakak tgh masak eh?" - "tak, arhh. Kakak tgh drive"
~the room is clean, and you ask, "Kakak kemas bilik, ehh?" - "tak arh.. MKPL(Makcik Kau Peh Laki).."(c'mon larh.. who else cleans our room? your marder?! please larhh..)
~there's no rice(shut up, Hazmi), and you ask, "Kakak tak masak nasi(shut up, Ansar)?" - "ade, pe.. besok Kakak masak"
~you see chicken curry on the stove, you ask "nari kari ayam, ehh?" - "tak arhh.. Nasi Goreng"

trust me.. these aren't the only ones.

you don't see me eating, and you ask, "you never eat, arh?" - "close your eyes and you'll see me eating"
you see me chatting with some idiot you don't know, and you ask, "Kakak chat ngan sape?" - "ngan matair kau"

seriously.. i give you these answers, and you get angry. i keep mum, and you get irritated.. what am i supposed to do? you can answer these questions yourselves.

that's it, i suppose..

p.s. Fauzi Rassull is an interesting person.. haha.. serious shit. and VogueLicious is hawt.. seriously.. Isaac and Jaz are cute =D AND I'M A GIRL!! rawr.. i seriously need to get myself a boyfriend..
ahh.. but i already have one.. *hush hush* 'tis between me and Farah(yes, Tia, your classmate). ahhahha.. peace ^.^

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
3:43 am

ADVICE

one simple advice everyone should heed:

the best way to get things done your way, the best way to get the results/end-products to your liking, is to do it yourself.. seriously.. that way, things get done your way. you're happy, and everyone else around you is happy. you don't get cranky, and people around you do not get affected. if anything goes wrong, you have only yourself to blame.

[quote]Menyesal aku suruh korang tolong[/unquote]

why do you think i never ask for help when in the kitchen? if you want to help, you help. if you don't want, don't comment.. you comment, do it yourself ^.^

thank God, i'm in a good mood today.. lest you guys get a bloody long post about ...*... . hahaha =D

i want to watch 4bia.. =D it's out on CR!! =D
and Hana Yori Dango Final Movie.. gahh!!
and KUROSAGI!! i swear i'll TRY not to squeal... O.M.G. hotstuff!! =B rawr.. makruh.. haha =P

love,
EFJ

p.s. 10 days. whee =D
p.p.s. 8 days. why tukar??? now i have to 'PSYCHO' my mum to agree to let me go.. gahh..

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6:04 am

ouhh.. crapp..

edit: after all the wedding and receptions and stuffs, Kak Mai's husband gave Mama a piee of cake, and said that this's from their wedding.. and i woke up feeling confused.. =/(18/09/08~8:53 AM)

i was getting married.. to.. my.. SISTER?! WHAT THE HELL?! ahhahha.. yeaa.. the start of another dream of mine..


soo.. yeaa.. i was the girl, my sister was the guy.. hurhur.. =D

anyway, i was supposed to get married on the same day as Kak Mai, my elder cousin.. we were getting married Christian style.. you know.. church, priest all that crap.. *gasps* we were getting married near my aunt's place.. in the same church.. the church had two adjoining aisle..

on that day, we were already in front of the church. and Kak Mai became... Inoue Mao.. whoa.. and she was getting married to Matsumoto Jun. Oguri Shun was their bestman. so the door welcoming the couple opened, and Jun took Mao's hand. and she told him not to.. he was supposed to be holding another girl's hand and walk out first. so he went, and she took Oguri Shun's hand.. and they got married..

after all that, my sister and i went in. there was my family, Latiff's family, Hazmi's family(i think) i didn't notice Ansar's family.. hahaha.. and then, my sister became.. someone else.. a GUY.. haha.. yeaa.. i wasn't marrying my sister no more.. i was marrying.. ermm.. shall not tell.. PM me if you really want to know ^_^" coz that idiot'll freak out.. hehh..

so we walked down the aisle.. and we waited and waited and waited.. coz our priest wasn't there yet.. after generations of waiting, he finally called me.. said he'd just arrived, and asked me to fetch. hahaha.. so i went.. LO AND BEHOLD!! 'twas Koyama Keiichiro.. HAHAHA!!

guess i've been too deprived of my Japanese Pretty Boys that they appeared in my dreams ^_^" none of them are my favourite, though.. =/ hrmm..

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for once, bitch.. for ONCE. i obeyed you like a loyal dog, for Pete's sake. i didn't go against you. i didn't argue with you. i listened to you, i didn't raise my voice at you. i tried my best not to get angry at you.. i tried my best not to make you angry. HE asked me not to. i TRIED. i fucking TRIED. you HAVE to understand how difficult it is for me to not get angry at you.. with the way you treat me..

omfg.. i did all that.. and you still screamed at me.. you have a bloody creative way of driving me crazy.. and i was supposed to NOT get angry at you?! you try to find my faults. you try to find ways to get angry with me.. i did my work. and you still could find things to scream at me about..

bottomline: you hate me and you find faults with me.. ALL THE FUCKING TIME..

now tell me how i am not supposed to get angry at you???

ohh my gawd..

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you scold me.. asked me to change my attitude.. i tried, fuck you.. i bloody tried.. and the result is still the same.. she still screams at me.. and then complains to you and then you tell me off.. how amazing. you two have such great chemistry..

you said she does my job when i didn't. you said i had to be screamed at before i do my job. fuck you.

1) i didn't need to be screamed at. i do my chores. at my own time.
2) why didn't you tell that to your princess??(sorry, sis.. but it's true). even if i HAD to be screamed at, i DID my job, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
3) she does my job?! she DOES my job FOR me?! please stop all your bullshit..
a) she does NOT do my job for me.
b) she does HER job for her, not MY job for me.. get your facts right..
c) she would rather wait for me to get home or get up no matter how late rather than do it her self. get your facts right.
4) you asked me to pity her, coz she's tired, etc. etc. etc.
d) BECAUSE OF YOU I TRIED TO NOT GET ANGRY AT HER, do you know that?!
5) bottomline: she hates me.
a) so much for trying to get close to me.
b) so much for trying to understand me.
c) you have no idea what happens at home, and you scold me based on what she tells you.
d) why is it that she complains to HER and to YOU about ME?! why does she never tell me anything?!
e) ever thought of that?! don't tell me all your kids are angels, and i am the only devil?! please..

ok.. i'm a devil. so unlike other people, right.. ok.. good job.. guess you people are better off without me in this world..

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there are much more that i want to say.. but yeaa.. i guess.. this is enough to scare Shila off i'm sorry, darling.. i'm really pissed..

love,
EFJ

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10:04 pm

kau boleh merajuk.
kau boleh marah, boleh meradang, boleh merajuk sampai jalan jauh-jauh.

aku merajuk, kau cakap aku melebih.
aku marah, kau cakap aku melampau.
aku meradang, kau cakap aku pijak kepala.

baguslah. keadilan yang kau ajar, keadilan yang kau tunjuk.

aku keluar PERGI SEKOLAH, kau kata aku merayap. keluar dengan jantan.

tolong terangkan bagaimana untuk tidak aku marah.

tolong, lah. jangan jadi budak-budak boleh?

aku cuba lupakan, aku cuba ceria, untuk tenangkan hatinya. kau sendiri yang suruh aku cuba gembirakan hatinya. tapi apa yang sedang kau lakukan?

aku seorang remaja. senang merajuk, cepat ambil hati. kau sepatutnya menjadi tiang kekuatan untukku. kau sepatutnya tunjuk bahawa aku tidak patut merajuk. tetapi kau pula yang merajuk.

aku cuba memulihkan keadaan. aku pinta kemaafan. tapi kau tidak pedulikanku. hubunganku dengannya hampir sahaja pulih. aku juga harapkan begitu darimu. namun tidak kesampaian. semua kerana egomu. sudahku pinta keampunan. sepatutnya bukan aku. aku tidak bersalah. aku tahu aku tidak bersalah. dan bukan egoku yang berkata-kata. namun ku tepikan sahaja maruahku. kucuba berbual denganmu. kutepikan sahaja egoku dan memohon maaf dahulu. amat kuharapkan hanya senyuman ikhlas darimu. atau anggukan kepala tanda kau faham dan terima maksudku. namun diendahkan sahaja diriku ini. terasa hancur sekali perasaanku. jangan salahkanku jika aku tidak lagi mendengar kata-katamu. kurasa hilang sudah rasa hormatku. hanya kerana kau tidak mahu menyerah kalah.

terima kasih.. atas segala yang telah kau curahkan hingga hari ini. atas segala yang telah kau korbankan untuk menyuap nasi ke mulutku. itu tidakkan kulupa. hanya aku amat mengharapkan lebih perhatian darimu dan darinya.

i guess i have been and will always be living on my own under your roof. i have always been, am, and will always be independent of you.. thank you very much for the lessons.


love,
EFJ

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1:43 am

ARGH!!! he reads my blog?! i never knew that..!! so he read that post.. and he's not the type to get angry easily.. i think.. =/

i have a lot of mysterious readers.. a lot of people are reading my blog without my knowledge.. and it's scary to think that some of my posts might have upset-ed certain readers..

please.. if any of my posts has/have upsetted you.. don't tell me.. coz i don't think i care that much.. anyway, it's my blog.. if you're upset, that's your problem.. i post what i was thinking at the point i was posting.. =D

somehow, i feel like i've posted something like this before.. hmm.. haha =D

hmm.. i had another dream.. wth?!

Daddy's company vehicle was towed away for some unknown reason. and he was given another vehicle.. a very very pretty 7-seater.. =D haha.. yeaa.. that's basically it..

and if you haven't read this before, i realised that my dreams only occur.. or i only remember my dream if i'm half-asleep.. if i'm dead tired and i sleep the moment the tip of my hair touched my pillow case, i don't dream/i don't remember my dream the next day.. hahaha.. interesting, ehh.. =D

hmm...

i hate me
you hate me
he hates me
she hates me
we hate me
they hate me
let's all hate me ^_^

i still don't get why it's so difficult for you..

bye =D

love
EFJ

p.s. seriously.. what is with you??

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9:53 pm

NOT FOR HAZMI'S EYES

1) I HATE DAVID!
~ he got me addicted to online comic strips. i'm turning into my sister.. *sighs*

2) i didn't wake up for sahur yesterday.
~ could not wake up.. been very lethargic throughout the whole day

3) didn't go for Day Camp yesterday.
~ coz some bitch thought that i need to tell her EVERY FUCKING THING that happens in my life and whatever i want to do.. even when i want to shit.. don't ask.. don't want to tell.

4) i've been nothing but a burden to everyone i've come across
~ don't ask where i got it from.. it's in the genes. do the science.

5) i've been bloody addicted to two online comics in one go.. thanks, David.. T_T
~ http://www.megatokyo.com/strip/1
~ http://www.dominic-deegan.com/view.php?date=2002-05-21

6) i'm starting to watch TV again. whoo! glorious TV!
~ Ghost Whisperer!! Criminal Minds!! how i miss television :P

7) i want to watch 4bia
~ please??? is it still on???

8) i want to watch Hana Yori Dango Movie
~ someone please? =D

9) i miss all my darlings and i want to meet them again
~ need i say more?


10) i had a dream..

~ was in the MRT with Fathiah(i think) when Hazmi and Latiff(surprise surprise!=P) walked in. knowing me, i have NEVER dreamt anything NOT out of this world ^.^. so now. what is so queer about this dream? what is so interesting about Hazmi and Latiff walking in the MRT train? hmm.. well, that's not the interesting part.. i have yet to get there, so please be patient. =D

the thing is, Hazmi.. HAHAHA! this part gave Ansar cramps, i think.. coz he was laughing with CAPS LOCK on the MSN when i told him.. :P so anyways... HAZMI.. whoo!!

haha.. ok.. enough with the procrastination.. where was i? ouhh.. yess.. HaZmI.. hahaha.. HE..

was carrying..................................
.........................................................
a.......................................................
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BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

in a bundle..

like whoa! Now everybody say, 'awwww'.. *inserts audience saying 'awww'* hahaha.. and Latiff was holding him.. like.. you know.. the way a GUY holds a GIRL holding a BABY. hand over shoulder, looking down at baby.. y'know what that means??

it MEANS.... HAZMI's not a VIRGIN anymore!! in my dream that is.. *insert Hazmi's high-pitched laughter* =D he always said something about being a VIRGIN.. =D

ouhh that was fun.. i'm guessing Hazmi's gonna have a bitch fit after reading this.. IF he EVER gets to read it.. *peace out dood* yayy!! an opportunity for me and Ansar to get back at that idiot.. whoo! a non-virgin Hazmi.. surprise surprise! HO! HO! HO!

OUHH SHIT!! i forgot.. IF Hazmi ever reads this, he'll probably tell Latiff.. and THEN i DIE!! coz Latiff'll kill me.. T.T

haha.. nahh.. he won't hurt a fly.. what more a GIRL.. =D

haha.. ok.. continue.. when they first walked in, there was a baby *chuckles* in Hazmi*snorts*'s arms.. we talked, and then i talked to Fathiah, and as we were alighting, we looked back at Hazmi *giggles* and Latiff and saw that there was no baby.. just them sitting in the train the way a normal couple does..

Hazmi lost his BABY!! wtf, Hazmi.. hee =D

O.M.G. i am so having a trauma.. THEM?! TOGETHER?! ouhh.. yess, people.. i am SO dead. Hazmi'll kill me.. and then he'll revive me.. and then he'll tell Latiff.. and then Latiff'll kill me.. and so i get killed twice.. yes, people.. that's how cruel and evil that 'sweet sweet senior' is.. you can ask Ansar if you don't believe me.. Hazmi traumatised Ansar.. and i got it all recorded down.. :P *inserts Hazmi's high-pitched laughter* i'm very contradicting, if you haven't yet noticed :P

ok.. i'm done with my dream.. HA. HA. HA.! =D

now let's continue on with my life.. hee hee.. =D

11) YAYY!!
~ beraye 5 ekor.. =D sure super kecoh =D

12) 18 days
~ can it not be at night? pretty please?

13) i had FUN
~ haha.. yeaa.. i had loads of fun typing all that down.. especially no. 10 =D that's the highlight of this post =D as you can see in the sudden colour change :P

peace out =D

bye!

love,
EFJ

p.s. sorry, dood.. 'twasn't my fault.. my dreams have always been rather queer.. but this's the most fun one i ever had.. i was laughing my ass off as i typed it down :P

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6:35 am

Random Videos =D

Abang playing with fire. at Fort Road. and Nana getting anxious and scared..

Jiji vs. Abang part 1

Jiji vs. Abang part 2

Jiji suffering coz Nana kicked his balls.. at the end of the video, he said something like, "kene bola, bodoh." haha yeaa.. "you hit my balls, stupid" =D

and something which'll make Shila scream at me =D douzo..
look carefully at the left side of the video.. observe the left side of the video very carefully. =D

kayy.. wanted to post all these on youtube.. but it somehow seems redundant to be posted so publicly.. at least, not everyone in the world goes my blog.. i hope.. haha.. these are just random things i recorded.. i have a few videos of *friends* *ahem*.. but i couldn't get their permissions.. soo.. ohh wells.. it stays in my computer, i guess.. haha :P

i got the last video from my dad, though.. haha.. i sent it to my phone =D

aites.. toodles.. =D

p.s. Torque is so super awesome shizz.. Caucasian bikers with abs and nice-toned bodies and amazing stunts are so super hot can? wootz.. Rempit-ers kentalans dokk =D harapkan bike je lawa.. tu pon tak sgt, larhh.. =D *peace*

20 =D

love,
EFJ

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12:00 am

UPDATES!

24th JULY 2008; THURSDAY
SINGAPORE INTERNATIONAL BAND FESTIVAL
1st DIVISION
REPUBLIC POLYTECHNIC CULTURAL THEATRE
12:45PM

performed Gallimaufry by Guy Woolfenden, all 6 short movements. 14-15 minutes in total.. whoo!

NGEE ANN POLYTECHNIC CONCERT BAND
77.71% - BRONZE

ohh.. well.. 'twas fine, i guess..

Need i say more?

Clarinetists. =D
(from left)
David, Peiwen, Chiang Chin, Faiezah, Ruth, Elaine, Fauzi, Hazmi(Eb)
Clarinetists and a few others.. ^.^

2nd Clars! =D Ruth, Faiezah =D

Yi Yang(tbone), Faiezah

Tiffany!!!! she went with SSW.. they got a bronze, too.. though a little higher than us =D
Ze Clarinetists! =D

WHOO!! scandalism in the bus on the way back to school =D
first culprit; Tony.. *gasps*

2nd culprit; Don.. *gasps*

the couple of people willing to wait for the bus. :P

i got both parties' permissions!!
but i'm being a kind soul by not showing their faces, though i'm guessing you've already guessed who they are :P this happened the night of the Sentosa performance. while deciding where to get dinner/supper

HAHAHA!! Abang got excited when he saw this in the toilet on the way to the waterfall site.. :P

i wanna go there again!! maybe for outings? haha.. band outing can? lol.. :P there's a chalet, i think, nearby.. but it's near the forest.. so.. hmm.. but i want.. i want i want.. then climb very very high, get fascinated by all the semut tanah-s, and freeze in the water.. how marvelous an idea is that?? =D

30th AUGUST 2008
VIRTUOSO XXI
DBS AUDITORIUM
1930 HRS

NPStrings concert. a few band members were invited to play as an orchestra. i was one of them.. whee!! haha..
played Celebration(rearranged Orchestra version) and Pirates of the Carribbean.. =D
and i tell you.. i was super ecstatic when David agreed to play.. =D YAYY!! I LOVE DAVID!! whoo!! haha.. he saved my blurdhy arse.. whoo! peace..
but he likes to poke me.. =( especially during practice.. and since he has easy access to my BABATs(seeing that he's sitting right beside me), he just can't seem to stop poking me.. it's very very annoying.. but he's able to resist my pokes.. GARGH! unfairness.. and while waiting for our time to perform, he poked me again.. rawr.. irritating.. but he's cool.. haha.. :P yeaa.. saved my arse.. so can't say anything.. :P

my life saviour.. =D sianzed. had to wait very long coz Ansar didn't know how to use my phone camera :P

the clarinetists for Virtuoso =D.. me, David, Ansar(getting choked by David's clar)

why does David have to look so sianzed in every picture? hrmm.. why can't he ever give a nice decent face..? haha.. :P

kayy.. i believe i've taken up like 10 years of your life.. =D toodles.. =D

love,
EFJ

I'M FINALLY DONE WITH THIS POST!! been procrastinating for the past week :P so now you know what i've been up to.. =D

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1:04 am

how simply superb

let(made) Nana prepare the pre-dawn meal on Saturday morning coz i was too lazy to get up.. watched Ghost Whisperer and House(AFTER SO BLOODY GODDAMN LONG!!) and slept at around 1+, i guess.. hurhur =D so i was lazy to wake up.. in the end she did it herself.. huhu.. heyy.. i'm training her, kayy :P there were some things i wasn't really pleased with, liike her tea.. but well.. she did it.. can't complain.. 'twas nice.. but she used something i didn't like.. hehh. it was nice nevertheless =D iluvya! =D

Saturday night, after breaking fast, went out with no definite destination in mind.. Mummy's idea.. -.- ended up playing dribble with Abang, Nana and Jiji at East Coast, and then Geylang, after dropping Abang off at Abg Fazly's house. i bought a new watch.. =D nicey.. bought Ramli Burger, Dendeng, some other food, and TAKOYAKI!!! yummy yummy TAKOYAKI!! prawn and chickenham+cheese.. Mummy said it was hamis.. tch.. she doesn't know how to eat it!!! hrmph.

reached home at 2+, and woke up grumpy.. TIRED and SLEEPY, kayys.. Daddy can still compare to when i'm going out with friends.. HELLO~! i don't go out until 2 the night before i go out with friends, kayy.. geez.. was grumpy throughout the day..

WHOO!

1 Tuba
1 Tbone
1 Tpet
1 Perc
3 F.Horns
1 B.Sax
2 Fls
2 Cls

amazing, huhh.. yerpz.. Saturday.. WHOO!! simply superb.. =D -,-'

edit: ARGH!!! so much for puase-ing full this year.. *sobs* let's just hope this's a one-day kind of thing, kayy.. Thank God, it was at night, just before i did my dusk prayers..

why do i feel envious?

love
EFJ

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7:03 pm

shut off

had a short dream. was at NP bustop(think 'twas after band pract) saw band members leaving school. waved to them and that's it.. don't try to understand. coz i gave up when i woke up. saw Ansar.. ermm.. think he was wearing green tee and white shorts.. ermm.. hair as per normal, and he was carrying that long brown bag of his.. haha.. yeaa.. see.. i TRIED to remember what you wore, ok, minah.. geez.. i was alone, i think.. the band members were going the opposite bustop. mmyeaa.. haha.. so.. yeaa.. that's it.. very short.. =D

Confused.

Thoroughly confused.

fearful of what else i don't know.

scared to open up to what else i'm closed from...

thought i knew everything.

but nothing is as it seems.

Ya Allah. i seek your guidance.

guide me along this confusing world and give me the strength to carry on and discover more of Your secrets.

Amin.

may i get enough courage to open my eyes and my mind even wider. Insya'Allah.


love,
EFJ

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10:30 pm

am i so insignificant?

am i so unimportant in this world?

what am i in your eyes?

in the midst of shutting off..


love,
EFJ

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8:15 pm

and this is why i prefer working in the kitchen alone.. WHOO!!

prepared pre-dawn meal for 2 monkeys, my dad and meself within 20 minutes.. ohh yeaa =D

wonder why she needed help and still couldn't be ready in half an hour.. hmm.. ohh wells.. peace out ya'll..

call me arrogant or selfish, but it's now my rule when working in the kitchen or anywhere else, doing/preparing/cleaning anything. either i work alone, or i don't enter the kitchen or anywhere else for anything except to help myself. obviously my mum either does not know, or does not care.. but ohh wells.. whatever =D


edit: ok.. i admit.. having Abang helping out is not such a bad idea after all =D yayy.. i love Abang! =D

love,
EFJ

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7:22 am

my aunt had a new child. he is about 3, and he's rather plump and big-sized.



i was watching a horror movie with some people when my uncle came in with his son. he was playing with his son, and i asked to carry him.. i played with him for a while, and continued watching the movie with him in my arms. when i realised he, too, was watching the movie, i immediately went out and star-gazed with him. we saw a million stars. there was a dot in the sky that was moving towards the north-east, and i was sure it was a star, and not an airplane. it was of the same size as all other stars. we also saw stars that flickered green, red and blue. they were all stars.. seriously.. but they glittered different colours, just like those celebration lights.



his dad came, and took him back to his arms. i then continued watching the movie.



suddenly, i heard some screamings.



my uncle was a rich, stingy, arrogant, evil man. he had a huge house near where i was watching the movie. a sea of plants surrounded his house. and an electrical fence surrounded the plants. trespassers will be electrocuted, and hypnotised to do his bidding.



the scream we heard was one of his victims. when we went to check, the victim had no pupil. his eyes were both bloodshot, and he was carrying a long rifle. when i looked closer, i realised my dad had become one of his slaves, as well. immediately, i set my mind to free the victims, all..



i went to school(which was very near), and entered Ansar's class(don't ask.. seriously). he saw me, and asked what had happened. i told him about my uncle, who so happened to be his class advisor. i checked his drawer(this is like those secondary school teachers' desks which has drawers) and found what i was looking for. my dad and the victim's personal information and their pictures, with their eyes covered. as i was reading through them when a shadow fell over me. i looked back, and saw my uncle, in black-and-green-striped shirt staring over me reading the informations, and giving me a questioned look. i then came up with some lame excuses as to why i was reading them, and told him that i was helping him clear his drawer. he asked for the papers and put them in the paper shredder. i tried keeping a blank face.

that night, i sneaked into NP and headed to the staff room(i know.. NP and staffroom are so not right together.. this is the general staffroom.. as in all teachers' stuffs are in there..) along with Ansar and two other girls(i think). we ransacked through my uncle's bin and looked for the pieces of shredded papers, and tried to rejoin them and find a way to counter the hypnotism. the pieces suddenly turned to blocks and then back to papers.. =/

and then Jiji woke me up. so yeaa.. that marks the end of another of my weird dreams.. ^.^
did you realise that this was the only dream i had which was described in colour? i have no idea how i can remember the colours.. =/


p.s. i don't know what to think anymore. i'm scared to know what else i don't know..


love,
EFJ

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10:13 pm

*The Princess*

Nur Faiezah
Capricorn Goat
sinfully.innocent@hotmail.com
PAP Bedok North(Nursery)
PAP Simei(K1; K2)
Changkat Primary(1A; 2K; 3A; 4A; 5C)
Wellington Primary(5/1; 6/1)
Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary(1E5; 2E5; 3E5; 4E6)
Millennia Institute(PAE)
Ngee Ann Polytechnic's School of Humanities: Diploma in Early Childhood Education(1CO2)
CKP Netball
CKP Malay Dance
WPS Library
AISS Concert Band
MI Symphonic Band
NP Concert Band
NP Japanese Tsubasa Club

LOVES
whatever she likes
almost anything and everything :D

DISLIKES
Cockroaches; the only things that can make me run all the way to the other end of the world
Backstabbers?
Those who can't keep secrets
Confinement
Limitations
Assholes(except you-know-who=D)
Idiots(except.. well.. =D)
Hardly anything else :D

*Forgotten Tales*

December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
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July 2007
August 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
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January 2011
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November 2012
February 2016
June 2020

*Escape Routes*

Her Boudoirs
My Friendster Account
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My Facebook Account
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♥Royalties♥
Nana
Abang+Kak Shida
Kak Adah

♥Fairies and knight♥
Diaz
Fiqah
Myra
Shila
Syafz
Syimmerz

♥Agapians♥
Agape
Chief Juian
Love Eric
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Love Wayne

♥UedaLovers♥
Ueda Fanlisting
UedaLovers
UedaLovers Group
Ueda's Tale
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JinDa-ism
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Chibi-chan
Hocchan
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AISS-ians
Dian Kamelia
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Sixerz
Faisal
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Lesley
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Su'aidah

Millenians
AIE
08A6 Esther
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Flintstone, Atikah
Flintstones Sarah
Flintstone, Tian Shui
Flintstone, Yiwen

CO2'08
Ameera
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Tiffany
Xing Wei

♪Bandits♪
♫AISS Concert Band♫
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others
Daron
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Colleagues
Eileen
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Theorell