Tuesday, June 23, 2009

FUCKERS

you give her the cold shoulder when she's vying for your attention.

and now that she's trying to forget, you keep wanting to talk to her.

what's your problem? what's wrong with you?

now that she's giving it another go, if you ever break her heart, imma pull out your fingernails and toenails one-by-one, break your bones joint-by-joint, skin you slowly alive, fork out your eyeballs, cut your shrivelled dick inch-by-inch, burn your nerves bit-by-bit and make sure you die the slowest and most painful death i can think of. i'll make sure you wish you never knew me nor her. remember that.




YOU THINK I WANT TO GO OUT EVERY FUCKING DAY?! I'M IN SCHOOL EVERY DAY DAMMIT. EVEN IF I'M HAVING FUN, I DO MY BLOODY JOB. AND YOU COMPLAIN SO MUCH. I DO OTHER PEOPLE'S JOBS WHEN I'M FREE AND I DON'T GET ANY APPRECIATION. INSTEAD, YOU ASK ME TO DO MORE. AND WHEN I DO ONLY MY JOB, YOU FIND EXCUSES TO BAN ME FROM BAND. BLOODY FUCK. YOU KNOW WHY I'M ALWAYS HOME LATE? BECAUSE I DON'T WANNA SEE YOUR FUCKED-UP FACE. YOU KNOW WHY I'M SO AGREEABLE TO GO TO SCHOOL EVERYDAY? BECAUSE YOU IRK ME. EVERY SECOND I STAY UNDER YOUR ROOF MAKES ME SICKER THAN STAYING AT SCHOOL MY LIFE.





love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
10:50 pm



Saturday, June 20, 2009

i'm lost. really i am.

i'm stuck. i don't know what to do.

someone help. who can i turn to.?


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
2:41 am



Tuesday, June 16, 2009

goodbye?


and now, i'm all alone. yet again. noone guiding me, noone supporting me. and i thought i finally had someone i could rely on. thanks for the encouragement.

go on then. i'm not stopping you. noone is.

just wave goodbye to me when you're on your way.


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
3:36 am



Saturday, June 13, 2009

i need a life.

I NEED A BLOODY LIFE. seriously.

two-week term break all planned out for me even before the common test period. THANKS, EHH..

ASSIGNMENTS DONE AND I'M STILL STRESSED. DAMMIT WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO 'REST' AND 'BREAK'?????

fuck

i need to cry. i want to cry.

i would rather study than face whatever i suspect will be coming. i need to break down now so that i can be strong when it hits.

and i don't expect you to understand.

there you go, Christian. the long-awaited post. -.-'

ok bye.

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
12:15 am



Saturday, June 06, 2009

DRUNK!

NOTE TO SELF:


NO MEDICINE OF ANY SORT AFTER MIDNIGHT.

forced that bloody cough syrup down at 2am and i woke up drunk. =.= missed that talk.. dammit..

SSW was.....
arrived at 2pm, ended at 4pm. went through Sea Songs and 3rd movement of Folk Song Suite.. zomg..

then kacau-ed Ansar and Tony who were STONING instead of studying.. =.=

ok bye.

love,
EFJ

another redundant post as a result of extreme boredom and refusal to finish up assignments due next week.. -.-'

♥;*~♪~*;♥
8:50 pm



CHEESY CHEESY LOVE BANZAI!!! =D

"what i look for in a boyfriend is someone who can last till marriage and after"

HAHAHAHAHHAHA! QUOTED FROM A WOMAN WHO'S LOOKING FOR A HUSBAND AT A TENDER AGE OF 17-PLUS... helllooo~ TEENAGEHOOD! REMEMBER?? we fall IN AND OUT of love during this phase of life.. why're you so eager to find THE ONE??? explore and experience first.. experience heartbreaks so that it wouldn't be so hard next time. learn your lessons. anyways, how would you know if he is THE ONE if you don't try? HAHAHA! sounds weird.. =/

ANYWAYS! CHEESY-CHEESY-LOVE SECTION!!! =D

i LOVE Cheesy-cheesy Love Section... ;D

got from Faisal's bloooooggggg

Girl: Do i ever cross ur mind?
Boy: No
Girl: Do you like me?
Boy: Not really
Girl: Do you want me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you cry if I left?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you live for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Would you do anything for me?
Boy: No
Girl: Choose--me or ur life
Boy: My life
The girl runs away in shock and pain,and the boy runs after her and says...
The reason you never cross my mind is because you're always on my mind.
The reason why I don't like you is because I love you.
The reason I don't want you is because I need you.
The reason I wouldn't cry if you left is because I will die if you leave.
The reason I wouldn't live for you is because I would die for you.
The reason why I'm not willing to do anything for you is because I would do everything for you.
The reason I chose my life is because YOU ARE MY LIFE

ZOMG! IF MY BOYFRIEND WERE TO EVER SAY THAT TO ME, I'LL HUG HIM AND I'LL KISS HIM OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND I'LL FALL IN LOVE WITH HIM ALL OVER AGAIN!!!!
sorry i'm a sucker for cheesy romance.. BANZAI CHEESY LINES!!! hahahahaa.. =P
but taglines are definite NO-NOs... =D but then again, guys who would say these kindsa things are close to non-existent here... and usually... after a few months into the relationship, the above scene won't appear anymore... *sighs* saddening to the max.

YAYY I WANT A BOYFRIEND!!! hahahaha.. i have a lesbian partner(who's also my great-grandmother and my daughter and my mother and.......) =D but i'm not a lesbian, no.. i don't find the joy in being one..(no pun intended.. SERIOUSLY!!)

ok. i should go sleep. hafta attend some stupid talk tomorrow... i didn't even know it existed.. -.-'
AND.. SSW practice.. concert coming up!!! stress stress stress.... =D(don't ask why i'm grinning in the midst of stress)

OK BYE!

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
1:53 am



Thursday, June 04, 2009

HAHHAHAHA! walao-ehh.. didn't know people actually terase..

amazing ehh.. =D


thanks for making me laugh.

it's just hilarious how stupidity can cause people to panic over nothing.. you know you're involved. you know what you've done. why the need to ask.? and beat around the bush? just go ahead and confront. straight to the point. =)

i've said countless times. if you think my posts're about you, then so be it. =) you're the one who started the fire. you're the one adding fuel. not us. so why should we worry?? =D

p.s. this is not a blog war and if you think i'm talking to you, i'm sorry i don't care.

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
11:45 am



Wednesday, June 03, 2009

let's give a round of applause. =)

MUST YOU REALLY DRAG THEM INTO THIS?! THEY'RE NOT INVOLVED.

IF YOU'RE NOT HAPPY, BE A MAN AND SETTLE THIS AMONG OURSELVES. WHY INVOLVE SOME PEOPLE WHO DON'T HAVE A FUCKING CLUE?!

ouh. i forgot. you can't really call yourself a man, can you.. hrmm.. interesting, aiye. =)

i'm sorry it didn't work on us.. but trust me when i say it won't work on them either. i will make sure of that. WATCH ME BRING YOU DOWN

i simply cannot fathom the length some people go to to attain attention from some others who couldn't be bothered nor stirred.

i must applaud you for your effort. really. watch me as i try my hardest to stifle my laughter and clap for you. it's an effort we should all follow. sadly, it WOULD have been acknowledged had it been used for something more beneficial.


love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
4:21 pm