Monday, April 28, 2008

okay.. been a long time since i last updated.. firstly, Diaz Novera.. aku terlalu miss kau larh.. that evil bastard ;D tapi aku tk gembeng mcm Fiqah :P hehh.





da.. tuje. :D



ermm.. what's been happening in life? basically, nothing much, except for the absolute fact that i'm going to die.. --please come to my funeral, people--



NPCB has been doing some sight-reading for the past three practices, and trust me.. i was sitting there like a gundu mannequin, holding my clarinet in my lap, staring at the pieces while the others were busy playing it.. for the past three practices.. DAMMIT, FAIEZAH, why can't you be of any use to the band? why can't you be of any use to ANY band for that matter?



rawr! i'm angry with myself.. i HATE myself for this.. and i even need Elisse, Fauzi, Fifi and even Azri to coax me.. to calm me down and get me going in the band.. dammit.. grr.. what the hell is wrong with you?? *bangs head on the wall*



haizz.. i want to quit the band, to quit being a burden to them.. but it's my passion, dammit! grrr...

hmm... i'm like listening to the different songs that we're going to play whilst reading/studying my scores.. and Elisse/Azri/Fifi, you guys HAVE to buy me a new pair of specs should i get cross-eyed.. ><>

hmm.. other than that, basically nothing.. i'm thinking of quitting Kickboxing.. i haven't bought the handwraps nor the skipping rope and i have yet to pay the monthly fees of $15.. gosh.. i'm super broke, i tell you.. rawr!

i went psycho and signed up for 5 CCAs and i'm currently in 3... going to quit 1 soon, so.. left with 2.. haish.. Poly's seriously taking a toll on my life.. --how many times have i said that?--

hmm.. what else? hmm.. somehow, people who've never chatted with me, or haven't been chatting with me for so long are starting to.. and i'm getting to know new friends.. basically, life's been great except for that part up there..

and as you can see, that my tone's changed from misery to neutral, to slight happiness.. well, i've chatted with people and they've seriously made my day.. erpz.. my night.. hehh.. yeaa...

and i think dairy products are seriously bad for me.. i get hooked on to dairy products super easily.. haish.. i'm currently addicted to milk, and soymilk.. the Vitamilk in a glass bottle.. hehh.. sold in Cheers for $1.20 :P it's super nice.. and you can ask Cruyff.. i'm seriously addicted to it.. i need at least one bottle of Vitamilk a day to keep me high.. haha.. it's true.. once i drink it, i get so high, it tired me out :P *peace* -lalalalala-

guess that's all *peace*

toodles! :D

p.s. you can see, that this post is seriously just full of random stuffs.. lol :D

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
5:54 pm



Thursday, April 24, 2008

Tagged by: S'Fiqah



1.At what age do you wish to marry?
~23? ;P mcm bole :P


2.How many children do you want?
~3


3.What do you want the most right now?
~Now? to be in the concert
Long-term? long-lasting relationship with my darlinks


4.What do you want to be when you grow up?
~Child Psychologist(mcm phm)


5.If you can have 1 more dream to come true, what would it be?
~To achieve my dream


6.What are you afraid to lose now?
~Most everything.. the trust i have in guys/men.. my sanity.. my sygs..


7.Do you believe in being in love forever?
~Yes


8.If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
~Most probably not.. i am not one who would make the first move..


9.How strong(in your heart) can you be?
~I seriously have no idea


10.What are the requirements that you wish from other half?
~Spontaneous, humorous, not self-centered, and NOT a constant liar(someone who ALWAYS lies)..


11.Which type of person do you hate most?
~Constant liars, self-centered people.. someone who expects me to tell everything, but does not want to tell me about him/herself.. someone who plays with my trust.. call me bitch.. but this's from first-hand experince.. i've learnt the hard way..


12.Do you cherish every single of your friendship?
~absolutely


13.Do you believe in god?
~yes, ma'am


14.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
~Everything.. trust.. my friends and darlinks ;-)


15.Do you find it necessary for you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?
~No.. and i doubt i'll change my mind so soon..


16.What do you want your friend to be like?
~Very open, and gila, if possible :D approachable, and fun to be with, someone who can lead me the right way..


17.What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?
~Approachable


18.If you have a change, which part of your character would you like to change?
~I trust people too easily.. and that's why i'm constantly hurt..


19.If you're feeling low one day, who will you go to?
~Haha.. it was either Rashilah, or Syafz.. then, it became Diaz and Fiqah when both the pumpkins started working and i went for PAE.. currently, Diaz and Fiqah are busy(Diaz-Indonesia, Fiqah-JC) so i go to either one of the MeeLizFiTetMo :P but i ♥ them all.. because they hear me out and calm me down and make me smile :) OUHH!! and not forgetting, my sister, sometimes.. yeaa.. she's two years younger.. shoot me for sharing my problems with my sister..

20.Who will you trust more, your friends or your kins?
~The situations greatly depend..




Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question to make it a total of 20 questions..Then tag 8 people in your links list them out at the end of the post.Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.Whoever does the tag will have blessings from all.


tagged:
Diaz,
Ameera,
Sophia,
Faisal,
Rashilah,
Syafiqah,
Myra, (apparently, i can't tag Myra :( how?)
Eric(hehh..)

p.s. i know you can't right-click.. just higlight the questionaire, and press Ctrl+C =) *taught by Atikahh*

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2:45 am



Monday, April 21, 2008

Trust,
It seems,
Is something i too easily
And too willingly
Give out..
I,
I believe,
Am too gullible for my own good
I,
I believe,
Too easily trust people
Hence i,
I believe
is too easy to hurt
And that's why i,
I believe,
Is constantly hurt
rawr.. it's frustrating to know that my trust has been violated.. it's amazing how people can just say sorry and then do it again.. it's saddening to know that assholes actually do exist in this already-messed-up world.. it infuriates me to know that i am too easily convinced by people.. i am enraged by the reality of it all.. it's provoking how disappointing how life can be.. and i am too tempted by the idea of shutting myself off from the world and only leaving openings for those who's really sincere..
it's amazing how mushy and sweet guys can be to mask their lies and deceit.. i am truly disappointed.. i am truly hurt.. and all i wanted was for you to be sincere and truthful.. it is truly unfair that i told you most everything, yet, you told me most nothing at all.. whatever it is that were written or said are all lies.. how unfair can life be? and all i wanted was simple sincerity..
that is it.. i am shutting myself off from you.. i am shutting myself off from the world.. i am shutting myself off from everyone and i am going to travel through life all alone in the accompaniment of my babies.. and my true loves...
goodbye.. and don't be surprised if my tone with you suddenly changed.. i have warned you.. call me a bitch.. but i can't help being what i am.. i admit i am a bitch.. get out of my life if you're unsatisfied.. i can't believe i've wasted an amount of my life on you, thinking of you, and believing in you..
--it will be during this time that Diaz will try to console me-- please don't.. i want to shut myself off for the moment.. and trust me.. you'll be among the firsts to know of my life..
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
4:09 pm



haha.. ok.. so currently, Diaz's depressed because apparently his internet connection is not exactly working and he can't view Fiqah's his and my blogs and he can't log in into blogger either.. HAHA!!! lol.. i am evil.. can't help it :P


ouhh.. and i think i forgot to mention Kickboxing first trial training in my previous post hehh. well, it was ok.. the warm-ups were tiring, that, i can say.. haha.. and we learnt stuffs like straight punches, and whips.. haha yeaa.. and we're supposed to buy our own skipping ropes and hand-wraps.. and we have to pay $15 a month.. haha.. they said that the school doesn't sponsor Martial Arts CCA so they bring in their own coach and we have to pay.. so yeaa.. i think it's quite reasonable.. haha..

anyway, since Kickboxing clashes with band, i have decided that i am only going for kickboxing once a week..
because Kickboxing trainings are on Tuesdays and Thursdays, 6pm-9pm on both days..
and Band Practices are on Thursdays from 6pm-9pm, and Saturday, from 1pm-4pm.. so since band is my 'passion', i go for band practices.. hehh.. :P Kickboxing is just a recreation for me, i think, and i doubt i'll be joining any kickboxing competitions..

ok.. so that's it for kickboxing, i guess.. and i went for the band tune-in.. and seriously..

--Mum's seriously having PMS.. she just scolded us for nothing -.-;--

ok.. back to band.. the tune-in was great.. haha.. well, it was said that the tune-in would be from 8-10.. but they then changed it to 10-4 -.-; haha. yeaa. 10-12 is like games and 1-4 is the combine.. well, you can roughly guess what happened in between.. haha :D

--Nana's having PMS as well.. she's screaming at the top of her voice whilst listening to her MP3 at its maximum volume -.-; --

okk.. BACK to band :P games was super fun and crazy.. haha.. we were given UNO cards and had to find a partner with the same-coloured or same-numbered card.. then we had to get to know each other and ermm introduce each other to the rest of the band.. and then we had to find two more people and repeat the process.. don't get it? TOO BAD!! haha.. bitchy me :P

we played.. ermm.. Mastermind(more like Monkey See Monkey Do), and Sperm&Egg.. haha.. i pity Elisse.. always getting bullied by the seniors lol.. Sperm&Egg was super kecoh.. haha.. and the Welfare Officer, Fauzi, was super crazy.. trust me.. he IS!! :P haha.. of course, lahh.. Fifi's friend -.-; haha.. ok.. anws, he told us about his life and his misery caused by a taxi driver.. -.-;

haha.. that's it.. and for combine, they played once through all the songs and they were DAMN good, i tell you.. i'm amazed they haven't yet kicked me out.. there was Japanese Graffiti XII(surprised i survived), A Lot of Words(this too), Spanish Fever, Caribbean Hideaway, and African Symphony.. haha.. yeaa.. heard that these are some of the pieces they're going to play for the Pops and Classics 2008: Around the World in One Night.. i think it'll be held in NP Hall(in the Convention Centre) around June.. should be 14th or 15th June.. haha.. yeaa.. and HOPEfully, i can and i will perform.. :P and they're going to join a competition somewhen in July, i think.. haha.. yeaa.. and at the end of the year, they're going to have another concert(an annual concert) called Rondeau.. this is open to the public, i think.. haha.. something like that.. haha.. and the conductor, Mr. Tan Aik Kee.. he's a funny dude.. somehow reminds me of Mr. Toh Yang Yang.. haha :P and i'm amazed.. the band is actually not as strict as i thought.. neither are they ill-disciplined.. ohh how i love the band.. :P and hopefully, i'll be able to work myself up to their standards :)


OUHH!! i forgot to mention.. apparently, this guy named Cruyff(whom i just recently remembered, by the way.. sorry, Cruyff) is in the band as well, as a saxophonist.. haha :P he was my classmate in 2003.. in 6/1 haha.. he sat in the same row as me.. but we hardly talked.. yeaa.. i've forgotten about him.. how sad.. =/ but he remembered me.. such a sweet dude.. we went home together, and talked about our classmates lol :P (we boarded the same bus and that was when he pointed it out to me =/)


ouhk.. i guess that's it.. and from here, i guess you guys can roughly guess how much into music and band i am.. and ermm..


ouhh.. Diaz.. i pity you.. NOT!! haha :P *total bitch mode ON*



p.s. no matter how much you deny it, assholes do exist

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
3:33 pm



Saturday, April 19, 2008

haha.. okay.. stoning in NP Library..

and since i have nothing else to do, i shall blog about my HMS FOC '08 camp.. --FINALLY-- :P

ermm.. i'm in Red House, Agape.. which means UNCONDITIONAL LOVE, for your information, Diaz Novera.. not A.G. Ape, whatever that means.. -.-; you Evil Bastard.. :D if Agapians read this, i can assure you that you won't live long :D

anws, Ace, one of our GLs said that he called everyone.. but apperently, i didn't get any calls.. so i came on the first day wearing blue.. how embarrassing is that.. GAHH!!.. :P but it was ok..


Agapians was super hyper.. especially the GLs.. Agape is made of Ai, Love, and Cinta.. i'm in Love :D so ermm.. there's only one male GL and 2 male Freshies in Love.. that makes the total male population of Love 3 :P ermm.. but still very kecoh.. haha.. one of the male Freshies, Wayne, he's like super kecoh lorh.. he likes to disturb people and slap Sheryl -.-; ohh speaking of Sheryl, she was from MI during PAE as well.. she was from my OG.. Flintstones 2.. coincidence much? haha. :P well, anyway, back to topic --brr.. sabui--

i think Agape is quite united.. :D haha.. :P especially Love :P everyday conference.. of course, it was I, that added them :P then, when Wayne enter, sure kecoh lol..

ok.. A..NY..WAY..

first day was pretty much nothing.. just go through cheers, identity, and had a ermm.. inter-house/inter-group mini-games.. then, at night, we had a campfire briefing and night games :D

then, on the second day, we had Amazing Race.. :D went to Sentosa and Orchard.. haha.. a lot of stations larh.. :P kecoh.. and along the way, the whole group had to 'take care' of one egg, make sure it doesn't break.. hmm.. :P during briefing, we played the Fuzzy Wuzzy game.. haha.. Sophie was so cute trying to figure it out.. haha.. and the bang bang game -.-; haha.. (the: bang bang bang, who die) haha.. yeaa.. that.. :D it was fun, making her blur.. :P especially Wayne.. he is super evil.. then, at Paragon, we had to do the Mass Dance and one other dance.. and ermm.. Wayne(yes, again, his name) suggested this ala ketinggi dance.. stupid lahh.. but it was fun.. haha.. it was fun, going crazy :P somemore at paragon.. :P

then like.. we didn't get to complete all stations, but we were the sixth group to arrive.. hehh.. we were supposed to arrive school by 5.30.. but we were still at Orchard, buying stuffs for Campfire item at 4.30 hehh..

then, dinner in bunk, whilst preparing for campfire :P

campfire wasn't exactly campfire.. but i can assure you it was WAYY better that AI Graduation Night.. hehh.. SERIOUS!! each group has to appoint ten people to do the runway.. and ermm.. each group also has to do an item.. and take this: there was no campfire AT ALL.. not even an improvised one.. haha.. seriously.. there was a disco ball, though.. haha.. so much for campFIRE huhh.. :D ^.^

haha.. then, after campfire, we had our own little private party in our bunk (just Love+YS+Calista) :D haha.. we played a lot of different games, like 007, truth or dare, tell ghost stories.. haha.. super crazy.. it was Thursday Night(Mlm Jumaat) and it was past 12.. and they said that the block which our bunk was situated in was the most haunted.. like.. siala.. -.-; haha..

anws, bathed at 4.30++, and ermm.. slept until 8+ haha.. had breakfast, and Induction Programme :D haha.. after that, photo-taking session lorh :D

then, that night, added everyone on MSN, and conferenced.. haha.. it was either that night, or on Sunday.. hehh.. :D and ermm.. since then, we've been conferencing every night.. and it was super kecoh.. :P especially with Wayne around.. he won't be satisfied until he disturbs EVERYONE.. haha.. ermm.. what else.. haha.. guess that's it..


ouhh yarh.. did i mention? i have another scandal.. hehh.. did i mention that i have a scandal during PAE? haha.. and apparently, i have another scandal here in NP :P and my NP scandal partner has around 3 other scandal partners.. lol.. :D

wotays.. that's it.. toodles..

p.s. i'm too lazy to colour it.. :P



OUHH!! did i mention? we(AGAPE) won the HOUSE CHAMPION of HMS FOC '08.. :D

and HMS won first in the Inter-school Telematch '08.. like... whoa!! haha.. then, celebrated at Mac at KAP :P well, only some of Love, and the House Captains, and Yong Sheng, and Calista.. haha :P went home with Calista and Wayne.. :D i hope Calista won't kill me :P hurhur.. we like to kacau those two lol :D


wotays.. BYE!! :P

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
8:54 am



Wednesday, April 16, 2008

before i'm too late,



JU NANA SAI NO TANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU, ARIOKA DAIKI! :D




Arioka Daiki


hee.. a pretty boy from Hey! Say! JUMP :D haha.. yeaa.. :P i have like.. 7 mins left.. :P whew.. :D

wotays.. haha.. Kickboxing and Camp stuffs later on in life yeaa..

--again, i'm procrastinating-- :D

love,
EFJ

♥;*~♪~*;♥
2:53 pm



Sunday, April 13, 2008

first and foremost, Happy belated birthday, Myra-ses.. :P i know!! super late lorh.. hehh.. but i've a;ready wished her.. so no worries aites.. :D

anws, yeaa.. i had a dream of Diaz.. AGAIN!! gosh.. he can't let me sleep in peace.. -.-;

this time, i dreamt that he drank beer.. -.-; llike.. whaa..?

haha.. i approached him drinking with his friends, and i realised he was drinking beer -.-; haha.. and i've somewhat forgotten the rest of it.. :D well, except for the fact that he poured some into this small white cup and offered it to me.. after something happened, i drank it *-.-'*, and it was tasteless.. it tasted like Brands.. the that thing.. yeaa.. the Brands Chicken Essence.. -.-; i suddenly remembered it..

this is the result of proscratination.. :P

anws, camp was super gerek.. :D

more info later.. school in 9 hrs time :D sleep, Faiezah.. SLEEP!! :D anws, toodles!!

p.s. i'm blogging from my laptop.. :D *shows off* happy.. ureshi.. :D


anws, bye! :D

love,
EFJ

p.p.s. this is probably one of the very rare posts that are short :D

i'll miss that evil bastard alot.. ALOT :P

have a safe trip and a safe flight, my friend.. and may our paths cross again in the future, InsyaAllah :) and all the best for your intake.. *evil laugh* :D

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3:08 pm



Wednesday, April 09, 2008

will blog about my dream and everything else when i get back from camp ne~


but first, i'll miss you..


and

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY, SHIRIN IBRAHIM



and



NI JU SAN SAI NO TANJOUBI OMEDETOU GOZAIMASU, YAMASHITA TOMOHISA



Tomohisa Yamashita

yess.. that pretty boy up there.. he turns 23 in 1 hr and 50 mins.. :D happy birthday


love,
EFJ

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1:10 pm



Tuesday, April 08, 2008

L.O.V.E U
Leah Dizon


*I LOVE U*
*All I think about is U*
*I LOVE U*
Please don't' wake me from this dream*


itsu datte anata no koto bakari
kangaechau no nande kana?
ki no sei? soretomo honki na no?
demo tabun kitto sou da yo ne

hitori niyakete shimau no mo
HA-TO ga tokimeku no mo sou zenbu
ai ga soba ni aru tte ki ga tsuita n' da
sono (wake)u ni hitotsu


*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I think about is U*
kono kimochi wa dare mo tomerarenai
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't wake me from this dream*
kagayaku taiyou sae mo

*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I think about is U*
amai kaori no hana ga saku made
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't wake me from this dream*
yume kara samete shimawanai you ni

*I LOVE U*
*All I think about is U*


watashi dake? konna ni nayamu no wa
ME-RU konai to fuan da yo
itsu demo anata wo kanjitai
kou yuu kimochi wakaru desho?

donna ni kyori ga tookutemo
shinpai shinai you ni so-tto
ai wo uta ni komete watashi dake no
tokubetsu na MESSE-JI


*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I dream about is U*
mune no oku ga sukoshi itamu no mo
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't take your love from me*
sore dake suki datte koto?

*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I dream about is U*
donna toki demo wasurenai you ni
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't take your love from me*
yume kara kiete shimawanai you ni

*I LOVE U*
*All I dream about is U*
*I LOVE U*
*Please don't take your love from me*


moshi namida wo nagasu nara
sore wa anata no mae dake da yo
datte sono namida wa anata ni shika
tomerarenai dakara


*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I think about is U*
kono kimochi wa dare mo tomerarenai
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't wake me from this dream*
kagayaku taiyou sae mo

*I L.O.V.E U*
*All I think about is U*
amai kaori no hana ga saku made
*I L.O.V.E U*
*Please don't wake me from this dream*
yume kara samete shimawanai you ni

*I LOVE U*
*All I think about is U*
*I LOVE U*
Please don't' wake me from this dream*


Romaji: Cori www.corichan.com




a very VERY nice song by a filipino-american whom Ryo-tan fanboys. hehh :D i like the song :D it's nice.. :P i like the dance too.. *does the dance* :P wotays.. my annoying sister wants to use.. so i've got to go... bye! :D

love,

EFJ


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12:16 pm



Thursday, April 03, 2008

DUDE!!! i must be really missing you mann.. i had a dream about you.. well, you weren't exactly present in my dream.. but.. phm2 je la..



haha.. two days ago(i think) i dreamt of you :P well, it was two dreams, actually..



anyway, let's start yeaa.. haha..



first, i went to crunchyroll.com for the usual stuffs.. haha :P to reply to forum posts on my *syg*'s group :P

then i came across this username: windbreeezer yeaa.. THAT.. then, i checked out the profile.. and someone wrote this in the guestbook: --dude! we miss you man.. the forum's no fun without you...-- whatever forum he's takling about, i have no idea.. so yeaa..

and the next one, i was at camp(Poly) and someone beside me asked for my phone.. and when he(yes, he.. no typo) was done with it, my phone rang.. he picked it up, and handed it to me.. when i answered, it was you.. hehh.. i really don't know how you knew my number.. i don't know how you know i have a phone.. maybe she told you, i don't know.. and we talked about something which apparently, i forgot.. hehh... so yeaa..


and i think i miss them as well.. i had a dream.. hehh.. it seems that nowadays i have so many dreams... i don't know why either..

anyways, we were performing for Achievements' Day, i think -.-; and this time, the current members, my batch, Huang Yun's batch, and even Fatin's batch were there.. i saw Iffah.. but i didn't see Atifah.. hmm... anyway, we were performing.. and yeaa. after the performance, we gathered at the parade sq, i think.. and yeaa.. i realised there were a lot of band members.. haha.. then it turned into a camp -.-; there were cheers and stuffs.. and when it was my group's turn, i was totally blank.. but my sect.mate(i think) just said follow her.. -.-; so i was like lagging behind.. haha.. so yeaa.. that's it :P


i told you my dreams are weird.. :D so yeaa.. haha.. the first two dreams are my brother, anyway.. he's in Taiwan for his NS.. he's gone for 44 days... he'll be back around 7th/8th/9th may, i think.. haha yeaa.. i don't why.. but i think i'm actually missing him.. hmm.. weird.. hen daiyo.. hmm..

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2:37 pm