Wednesday, January 14, 2009

ME

highly insensitive
overly sensitive

highly egotistical/highly egocentric
selfish
not self-centered

perfectionist
couldn't be any less bothered about details

highly hateable
highly lovable
you hate how you love me and you just love to hate me

extremely difficult to handle
simple girl

thinks too much
thinks too little

extremely hardworking
totally lazy

pessimist
optimist

highly introverted
highly extroverted

a good friend
a lousy mate

puts others before self
saves self's ass before others'

i'm constantly craving for attention and yearning for affection. i am forever in need of someone to talk to. forgive me for hating you when i feel that you're avoiding me. forgive me for ignoring you when i feel that i'm neglected. i'm a good friend to my good friends.

i like being disturbed. in a way. but not too much. it sort of makes me feel the 'center of attention'. haha. i'm an attention-seeker in case you didn't know. =). to someone i don't really like, i'll just ignore. to some others i'm close to, i'll 'shoot back' in a sense. i'm an attention-seeking people-pleaser. haha. yepp.. that's me. =D

i'm a human. if you're lucky, i'm an angel. luckier, i'm a total bitch. i hold grudges. i forgive but i don't forget.

i tend to bring up your past mistakes and i hate it when it happens to me.

i live in the past and the future. i'm always here and i'm almost never here.

i'm forever a blank soul. i'm totally open, but i can't handle too many things at once. i need time to digest things, and it might take as long as months. i need to get used to things.

i'm a risk-taker and i'm always on the safe side.

i thrive on changes but i need time to adapt.

i despise routines but it's what makes me feel safe.

i'm a sponge. i'm easily manipulated and influenced. and once i've made a stand, i don't change my mind. no matter what you say.

i can befriend someone, but once i hear stories, my views might change.

i'm highly manipulative and 'persuasive'. i tend to make people do what i want them to. woops. but then again, people just tend to tell me things.. =/ so i guess it's not my fault. just my aura. ask Minah. he knows. :P

ok. ermm..

i'm often easily paranoid.

i'm two-faced and a hypocrite. i can befriend you, and treat you nicely, but talk behind your back or hold grudges you never knew i had. i'm a total bitch, i know.

i have very low self-esteem. and i have high self-confidence(i'm not over-confident)
i'm naturally very shy, but i open up easily. and i get accustomed to people easy.

i like to help. that's how i feel useful. i like being needed. i like sharing what i know and helping whenever i can. but i'm not your slave. i like helping when you ask me nicely. but if you throw things in my face and just walk away, thinking that i would help you..... ....................
i might just do, but you won't see any sincerity.

i'm naturally a cheerful and happy-go-lucky kind of person, but once i'm pissed, i'd suggest you stay away.

i'm very emotional. not emo. emotional. and usually, you can tell when i'm not in a good mood.
i'm emotional, but i don't show my emotions often. usually, i'll just keep quiet when i'm not in a good mood. i only show my emotions to people i trust and people i'm close with. if you're not close to me, and i show my emotions to you, then something must have gone seriously wrong somewhere between us. either that, or i'm just too pissed to bother. and it's very rare that you see me cry. (see above) i usually cry when i'm too stressed, or too pissed, or just feel like crying.

it's super difficult to piss me off. but once i'm pissed(refer to above)

i like to 'read' people.
i tend to 'analyse' people without realising.
and when i realise it, i can roughly gauge what type of person he is, and i'm pretty much correct. scary shit, huhh.. haha
but some people are just tooooo difficult to 'read'.. =/

i adore cute things like kittens and dolphins and heart-shapes and i'm very rowdy.
i love stuffed toys but i hate the way it irritates my nose. =/

i adapt easily to different situations.
i'm a listener and talker.
i'm different with/to different people.
i mostly listen when my company is talkative and i talk when my company is quiet.

i despise silence and i love quiet spots.

i hate being alone and i love being on my own.

i'm independent and i'm very dependent on people.

i'm useless and hopeless and i am dependable.

i'm neat. i like everything neat and organised.
i don't mind organized mess, but i can't stand untidiness.
but then again, i'm too lazy to clean.
i only clean when i'm in the mood, or just can't stand it anymore.

i'm a different person at different situations.

what best describes me?
a rose.
a simple rose.

sweet and hurtful
soft and sharp
pleasant and thorny

don't get it, do ya.?

well, let's just say i'm a very complicated girl with simple needs.

just when you thought you'd had me all figured out. (=

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love,
EFJ

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