Wednesday, September 17, 2008

ouhh.. crapp..

edit: after all the wedding and receptions and stuffs, Kak Mai's husband gave Mama a piee of cake, and said that this's from their wedding.. and i woke up feeling confused.. =/(18/09/08~8:53 AM)

i was getting married.. to.. my.. SISTER?! WHAT THE HELL?! ahhahha.. yeaa.. the start of another dream of mine..


soo.. yeaa.. i was the girl, my sister was the guy.. hurhur.. =D

anyway, i was supposed to get married on the same day as Kak Mai, my elder cousin.. we were getting married Christian style.. you know.. church, priest all that crap.. *gasps* we were getting married near my aunt's place.. in the same church.. the church had two adjoining aisle..

on that day, we were already in front of the church. and Kak Mai became... Inoue Mao.. whoa.. and she was getting married to Matsumoto Jun. Oguri Shun was their bestman. so the door welcoming the couple opened, and Jun took Mao's hand. and she told him not to.. he was supposed to be holding another girl's hand and walk out first. so he went, and she took Oguri Shun's hand.. and they got married..

after all that, my sister and i went in. there was my family, Latiff's family, Hazmi's family(i think) i didn't notice Ansar's family.. hahaha.. and then, my sister became.. someone else.. a GUY.. haha.. yeaa.. i wasn't marrying my sister no more.. i was marrying.. ermm.. shall not tell.. PM me if you really want to know ^_^" coz that idiot'll freak out.. hehh..

so we walked down the aisle.. and we waited and waited and waited.. coz our priest wasn't there yet.. after generations of waiting, he finally called me.. said he'd just arrived, and asked me to fetch. hahaha.. so i went.. LO AND BEHOLD!! 'twas Koyama Keiichiro.. HAHAHA!!

guess i've been too deprived of my Japanese Pretty Boys that they appeared in my dreams ^_^" none of them are my favourite, though.. =/ hrmm..

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for once, bitch.. for ONCE. i obeyed you like a loyal dog, for Pete's sake. i didn't go against you. i didn't argue with you. i listened to you, i didn't raise my voice at you. i tried my best not to get angry at you.. i tried my best not to make you angry. HE asked me not to. i TRIED. i fucking TRIED. you HAVE to understand how difficult it is for me to not get angry at you.. with the way you treat me..

omfg.. i did all that.. and you still screamed at me.. you have a bloody creative way of driving me crazy.. and i was supposed to NOT get angry at you?! you try to find my faults. you try to find ways to get angry with me.. i did my work. and you still could find things to scream at me about..

bottomline: you hate me and you find faults with me.. ALL THE FUCKING TIME..

now tell me how i am not supposed to get angry at you???

ohh my gawd..

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you scold me.. asked me to change my attitude.. i tried, fuck you.. i bloody tried.. and the result is still the same.. she still screams at me.. and then complains to you and then you tell me off.. how amazing. you two have such great chemistry..

you said she does my job when i didn't. you said i had to be screamed at before i do my job. fuck you.

1) i didn't need to be screamed at. i do my chores. at my own time.
2) why didn't you tell that to your princess??(sorry, sis.. but it's true). even if i HAD to be screamed at, i DID my job, THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
3) she does my job?! she DOES my job FOR me?! please stop all your bullshit..
a) she does NOT do my job for me.
b) she does HER job for her, not MY job for me.. get your facts right..
c) she would rather wait for me to get home or get up no matter how late rather than do it her self. get your facts right.
4) you asked me to pity her, coz she's tired, etc. etc. etc.
d) BECAUSE OF YOU I TRIED TO NOT GET ANGRY AT HER, do you know that?!
5) bottomline: she hates me.
a) so much for trying to get close to me.
b) so much for trying to understand me.
c) you have no idea what happens at home, and you scold me based on what she tells you.
d) why is it that she complains to HER and to YOU about ME?! why does she never tell me anything?!
e) ever thought of that?! don't tell me all your kids are angels, and i am the only devil?! please..

ok.. i'm a devil. so unlike other people, right.. ok.. good job.. guess you people are better off without me in this world..

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there are much more that i want to say.. but yeaa.. i guess.. this is enough to scare Shila off i'm sorry, darling.. i'm really pissed..

love,
EFJ

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10:04 pm