Monday, July 28, 2008

ily ^.^

all i craved for was a hug from you..
all i wanted was your concern
all i needed was an 'are you OK?' from you..

*sighs* disappointment.. should i give up? i guess i got all my hopes up for nothing.. all those gestures meant nothing in the end, i guess.. haizz..

not only you, i guess.. i got a nagging from them too.. *sighs*
maybe that's how you show your love towards me, just like how you showed him.. but i'm not him.. i'm not even LIKE him.. please don't compare me with him..
i feel so deprived..

on a lighter note, i seriously feel pampered.. and taken care of(the irony =P).. omgosh, larhh.. seriously.. even him.. thanks, Sir.. =D thank you all fpr your concerns

hahaha.. Fi, you know why, right? haha.. i'm too lazy to blog it down.. =D let those who know, know, and those who don't, not ^.^ if you really want to know, PM me ^.^

or maybe, i'll just write about it in another post ^.^ wahaha.. if i remember and if i'm not too lazy.. hehh.. ok.. i'm getting lazy right now.. shouldn't have procrastinated so much.. hurhur..

i want to eat.. see, larh, Hazmi.. i'm eating, yea.. i'm not torturing my body.. haha.. and darlings, i'm fine, okeyy.. haha.. whee.. =D Fi, don't smack me T_T hubby, and Abang Nur, stop nagging me T_T i'm fine! seriously.. haha.. Winnie's just exaggerating.. lol.. i'm forever in a daze, my dear.. haha.. that's most probably because i'm stoning.. haha.. peace! i'm so in love.. wheee! =D thanks, darlings!
life's been superb thus far.. Alhamdulillah. and i'm simply glad i didn't appeal for another course in SP.. =D as much as i'd like to be in the band, i'm happy in NP.. all my friends, and seniors, and bandmates.. they all look after me..
well, there MIGHT be a few idiots here and there.. like.. ANSAR.. beh-luh-dy idiot.. and Hazmi.. that bastard-with-a-father.. haha.. but i love them all whee! haha =D

hrmm... the list of people to thank is rather long, but i will try.. =D

thanks to:
Ansar
Fauzi
Ruth
Hazmi
Latiff
Yi Yang
Elisse
hubby(via SMS after that =D)
Abg Nur(my Godbrother =D)
Wei Kit(for the bun.. haha =D)
Mr. Tan(hurhur =D)
for taking care of me during the Sentosa performance
and:
Sophia
Ameera
Teti
Edmond
Winnie
for taking care of me during class and after.. haha..
and Shila -.- =D hahaha
and everyone else i've forgotten to mention.. haha.. =P

special thanks to:
Ansar for looking out for me from before the start of rehearsal to all the way home =D
Mr. Tan for snatching the stands from me and asking me to go rest and refusing to let me play.. haha.. sorry, Sir.. i'm a stubborn girl =D
Hazmi for nagging at me to go to sleep.. and eat.. haha.. and for all the other times you've heard me out =D
Latiff for taking care of me during Manjusri performance =D
Sophia for listening to my whines about the seniors.. and him T_T wakakak =D
Winnie for actually looking out for me.. haha..
hubby for nagging at me for basically everything.. haha
Abang Nur for taking care of me and the never-ending 'hello's when you're bored.. haha

ok.. i'm getting sleepy.. it's beh-luh-dy 3:18AM now.. Fi's so gonna kill me.. haha.. and Mi'll give me the Good-larh-you-sick-still-want-to-sleep-so-late-you-die-not-my-problem Lecture =P Tet'll probably give me a lecture too, but it won't be as full of sarcasm as Bimbo's HAHA =D Ed'll just roll his eyes and laugh his ass off..
Hazmi'll probably nag at me again
Di'll roll his eyes and give me that look.. haha.. =D
hubby'll roll his eyes and nag at me too.. haha =D

but i'm loved.. ohh yeaa.. i feel loved.. i'm loving tertiary education life.. and i DEFINITELY do not regret being in NP.. though it wasn't really my first choice.. haha =D but yeaa.. i feel loved ^.^ i guess there really IS a silver lining behind every grey cloud.. i guess there really IS a bright light at the end of every dark tunnel.. yayy.. i'm happy.. i'm elated.. i feel like a kid.. i feel pampered.. =D

to be honest, i feel loved. more than i do at home.. yeaa.. ironic.. at this time, Diaz'll start his religious lecture.. haha.. sorry, Di.. it's true.. maybe i've been taking advantage of a lot of things, or maybe i just didn't feel the love.. but i guess, here, they express their concerns more openly and directly, and that's why i feel blessed to have known these kind souls..

Ya Allah
i thank You for letting our paths cross
i thank You for blessing me with the acquaintances i know now
i thank You for opening my eyes and my heart
i thank You for the pleasant life i am leading right now

and hopefully, from now on, it just gets better, InsyaAllah.
Amin..

=D yayy.. i want to write more.. but i don't know what i want to write about.. i'm not usually so blocked =x haha..

and yayy, Ansar.. hurhur =D i'm Evil and you're an Idiot! whee! haha =D and he's so not drool-able, kayy! haha.. and my grasp of the English Language'll forever be better than yours =D so will my Malay Language.. haha SUCKER! =D

and Hazmi's super sweet can? haha.. besides whatever i've written up there.. i tell you, he's simply perfect.. well, except for the part where he curses a lot, and he's rather abusive*ahem ahem* and he finds politics fun.. wth? and a few other things.. other then that, he's such a great senior.. sometimes i feel he's too good for me to hang out with him.. i'm always bothering him.. haha.. he's simply perfect.. seriously.. he's the perfect brother/boyfriend.. i'm really happy for that one who will win his heart ^.^ you'd better keep him, bi-atch. or i'll snatch him away from you.. *evil laugh* that's what i said to Liz and Tiff, too.. haha.. =D i'll snatch their boyfie if they don't treasure them.. lol.. =D
and when Hazmi reads this part, he will so kembang like a rafflesia.. -.- haha =D or even bigger..
p.s. can i post that picture?? =D please? pretty please?? haha.. =D

haha.. Latiff's sweet too, when he wants to be, i guess.. haha.. but i guess i don't know him well enough to say anything much.. but thanks, for telling me stuffs.. haha.. and for lending me your shoulder yesterday.. literally.. haha.. whoo! Dancesport!! yayy!

anyways, Shila and Syafz loves me ^.^ this is what happens when i don't have a topic to blog about.. haha =D randomness sets in =P

*PEACEOUT*

<3(and feeling <3ed)
EFJ
=D

yayy.. =D

p.s. i seriously might fall in love with you one day.. just you watch out..

♥;*~♪~*;♥
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