Friday, July 18, 2008

BLOODY HELL

i don't see your seriousness.
where's the discipline?
where's your discipline?
you're supposedly young adults, for God's sake.
the discipline should be automatically there.
it's not your bloody first time.
how long have you been doing this?
why couldn't you just show some respect?
he's been waiting there for you since the supposed starting time.
and what time do we start?
1.5 hrs later.
bloody hell.
where's your sense of urgency?
168 God-damned hours
7 bloody days
1 freaking week
how many more chances left?
all these for that fucking 15 minutes in front of 1 panel of God-knows-how-many judicators.

and that 15 minutes is the ONLY time we have to prove ourselves. to show what we are capable of. that 15 minutes COULD change something. that 15 minutes means A LOT. that 15 minutes. no matter how short it seems right now, it makes a difference. imagine; 1 month(30 days; 720 hours; 43200 minutes) of preparation for 15 minutes of performance. can't you tell how much impact it could cause?

irritating shit. what time are we supposed to start? and what time do you enter?? let's not talk about our actual starting time. what time do you enter? plus your last-minute practices and other preparations. so much for "no more practicing; from now it's all rehearsal" if it's all rehearsal, why can't you just set up your instrument, do a little tuning on your own before entering the room, and when you enter, just sit down and wait for him to start? wouldn't we start earlier then? think, people. and can you not talk when he is talking? can you not make so much noise when he's not focusing on you? study what's in front of you. those lines and the black thing on them(called notes).

i know i'm not in any place to say all these. and i have no right to blog about it either. hate me. kick me out. it doesn't make a difference. i would not change my mind. and if you're unhappy with my post, you know why.

bloody hell.. irritating..

yeaa.. i'm pissed.. i've been bloody pissed these few days.. you might not have noticed.. it doesn't matter.. ignorance is bliss.. and it's true in this case. it's always a blessing when you don't know when i'm pissed.. coz if you do, you can sense hell.. so you'd better not ask of my situation. if i want to, i'll tell.. other than that, better not ask.

i scolded(screamed at) Azri, and i gave Latiff the cold shoulder. i'm sorry.. i was pissed, and not really in any mood to talk to any committee members. especially not the P and VP..

and Hazmi is one evil bastard.. challenging me to Sudoku in the middle of practice.. whatever, idiot.. =D

yeaa.. only certain people can lift my mood.. Diaz's one of those.. =) i will miss you.. and i want to klua with you and Fiqah tomorrow!! =D

love,
EFJ

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